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Copyright
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First published in Great Britain by HarperCollinsPublishers 2018
Copyright © Sue Moorcroft 2018
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Dedication
To every wonderful member of my street team
Team Sue Moorcroft
with grateful thanks for your support.
You rock!
Contents
Cover
Title Page
Copyright
Dedication
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty-One
Chapter Twenty-Two
Chapter Twenty-Three
Chapter Twenty-Four
Chapter Twenty-Five
Chapter Twenty-Six
Chapter Twenty-Seven
Chapter Twenty-Eight
Chapter Twenty-Nine
Chapter Thirty
Chapter Thirty-One
Chapter Thirty-Two
Chapter Thirty-Three
Chapter Thirty-Four
Chapter Thirty-Five
Chapter Thirty-Six
Chapter Thirty-Seven
Epilogue
Acknowledgements
Keep Reading …
About the Author
Also by Sue Moorcroft
About the Publisher
Chapter One
Georgine tied the laces of her running shoes, keeping one anxious eye on the patterned glass in her front door and the two manly shapes silhouetted by November sunlight.
One of them knocked with measured movements. ‘Miss France? Miss France? Come to the door, please.’ Then he muttered something to his companion.
The companion answered clearly, ‘Not giving up yet,’ and leant on the doorbell, raising his voice above the sound. ‘If you could just open the door, Miss France, we won’t keep you long.’
Everything about the men and their insistence said ‘debt collectors’. Even though she knew they weren’t as bad as bailiffs, who could lawfully gain entry, they raised too many horrible memories for her to open the door, even just to say that Aidan no longer lived with her. She wouldn’t have expected to be believed, anyway.
Heart tumbling, she fumbled herself into her running jacket and gloves, then checked her backpack for the Christmas student show production file. Yep, there was its pretty Christmassy cover, nestling on top of her distinctly less-Christmassy work clothes. Quietly, she swung the backpack onto her shoulders and let herself silently out of the back door, heaving a sigh of relief as she turned the key. The debt collectors would have to come up the footpath behind the terraced houses on Top Farm Road and climb her six-foot fence to see her here. She hoped they wouldn’t, because that was the route she was about to use to escape.
Breath forming a white cloud, she loped across the lawn, every grass blade rimed with frost and squeaking beneath her feet. A run and jump onto a garden chair and her gloves found enough purchase on the top of the ice-beaded fence to allow her to swing a leg over the top, then she was up, over and jogging along the footpath.
When she reached the point where Scott Road met Top Farm Road she lengthened her stride. She’d intended to drive to work until her unwanted callers had planted themselves between her and her elderly hatchback, but it was exhilarating to race through the zing of frost on the morning air. Any number of men could bang on her door all day long without bothering her.
Her breath came easily as she found her rhythm, legs carrying her out of the Bankside estate, soon reaching the last houses of Middledip village. The pavement petered out and her comfortably worn running shoes began slapping the road. She tried to concentrate on thinking about props for the Christmas show, but every time a car whooshed past she hopped onto the verge and held her breath in case it was the debt collectors and they’d somehow guess she was the Miss France they’d been trying to speak to.
It was a relief, when she’d covered a mile or so, to swing left beneath an iron arch bearing a white sign with black writing:
ACTING INSTRUMENTAL
Performing Arts College
Sanctuary. A place where she could leave reality behind. Her running feet ate up the final few hundred yards as she wove through students ambling along the drive, chatting or heads down over their phones.
One called, ‘Good mawnin’, Mizz Jaw-Jean,’ in a pretty fair Midwest American accent.
Laughing breathlessly, she raised a gloved hand. The student, Isla, was not only a drama student at Acting Instrumental, but the daughter of Sian from Georgine’s own schooldays. Her schoolmates in the huge comprehensive school in the nearby town of Bettsbrough had loved to rib her with awful parodies of her American father’s soft Georgia drawl. She wished she had a pound for every time her teenaged self had heard it. It might pay off the scary men at her door – if it had been her debt they were trying to collect. Which it wasn’t.
She’d honestly thought she’d finally be OK for money when she landed the job of events director at Acting Instrumental three years ago, but what with Georgine’s dad and her sister, Blair, needing support at different times, and Aidan falling apart upon being made redundant, which had led to the current financial mess … Still, never a day passed without her thanking her stars that she hadn’t been daunted by the formal language in the ad for an events director of student productions. What her role actually required her to be was stage manager, producer, hand-holder, bridge-builder and breach-filler.
Georgine specialised in that kind of role.
She veered towards the main building. Barely slowing as she yanked off her backpack, she touched her pass to the card reader. The door clicked a greeting and glided aside.
The first person her gaze fell on was Norman Ogden, the principal of Acting Instrumental, strolling past the as yet naked Christmas tree in the foyer at his usual deceptive pace. Peering from under his fringe, he reminded Georgine of an enormous schoolboy who’d found an adult set of clothes and tried them on. ‘Cold enough for snow,’ she panted, to draw her boss’s attention away from the fact that she only had a few minutes in which to change out of her running gear before work.
‘A snow day to keep us at home would probably suit the students,’ he responded good-naturedly. ‘Need a catch-up. Quick meeting, you and me, ten minutes, my room?’
‘Great,’ she replied as she jogged towards the staff area, suppressing the urge to point out that she was busy, busy, busy as it was just six weeks until opening night of A Very Kerry Christmas, Uncle Jones, this year’s Christmas show by the top year students. It would be her sixth show since she’d come to the college.
And she had to phone Aidan to give him a giant bollocking about responsibility dodging. It was more than time for him to man up. She sighed as she reached the female staff locker room. Left over from when the house had been a luxury private residence, the locker room had a sumptuous pale grey marble shower room attached.
Queen of the lightning-fast shower, she switched on the water, wriggled out of her running kit and hung it on the radiator so it wouldn’t be clammy for the run home, and jumped into the spray. Soon she was dressing in the clean clothes she unrolled from her backpack. Two further minutes with hairbrush, tinted moisturiser and mascara wand and she was ready to start her day.
As she emerged into the corridor, students were streaming towards rehearsal rooms or first sessions, crowding her with their backpacks and instrument cases and confining her pace to what she thought of as ‘the student shuffle’.
Chatter and laughter rippled through the air. Georgine smiled. She loved this time of year. Halloween and bonfire night had passed and now the students were looking towards the main event of the term: Christmas. Already posters advertising A Very Kerry Christmas, Uncle Jones were appearing in Middledip, Bettsbrough and even as far afield as Peterborough.
Some of the students called, ‘Hey, Georgine!’ and she returned their greetings, only pausing when a tall, solemn youth with a guitar-shaped gig bag on one shoulder fixed his gaze on her and announced sternly, ‘Got me grade seven acoustic guitar.’
Not fooled by the unsmiling delivery from Tomasz, a student generally held to be ‘challenging’, she raised her hand for a high-five. ‘Fantastic, Tomasz! That’s awesome!’
‘I’ll get a stiffycut.’ Tomasz’s heritage might be Polish but his accent was pure Bettsbrough. He performed his part in the high-five as if obliged to humour her, but triumph shone in his eyes before he turned away.
Georgine was still grinning at his pronunciation of ‘certificate’ when she reached the office suite, calling ‘Morning!’ to Fern as she passed through the admin office and reached the door marked Norman Ogden at 8.30 a.m. precisely.
‘C’mon in,’ Oggie called genially and gestured towards one of the tub chairs that stood around his desk. ‘Tell me all the news.’
Georgine settled herself in the brown chair. She was long past hunting for hidden meaning in Oggie’s habit of opening meetings with informal questions, knowing he’d listen with apparently equal interest to progress reports, student concerns, personal news or downright gossip. Previous years working in mainstream schools as a teaching assistant or arts support staff had made Georgine deeply appreciative of a head like Oggie.
She knew if she told him about the men banging on her door he’d instantly offer any support he could, but she felt sick just at the idea of sharing such shaming information, so she got straight down to business. ‘Tomasz has passed grade seven acoustic guitar. He’s waiting for his certificate.’
Oggie gave several claps of his big hearty hands. ‘I’ll find him later to offer congratulations. He seems to have settled a bit this term.’
Georgine nodded. ‘Because it’s his second year, maybe.’ Knowing Oggie would want an update on the progress of the show, she opened her file and reported speedily on music, dance and drama rehearsals, winding up with finance. ‘I’ve negotiated a better discount with the Raised Curtain by supplying our own lighting and sound crews from the theatre-tech students. It’ll be great experience.’ Experience was a buzzword at Acting Instrumental.
She closed the file and shifted to the edge of her chair ready to get on with her day. A Christmas musical-theatre piece was a fantastic showcase of student abilities and evidence for their courses, but it meant a lot of sweat from the events director.
Oggie stretched and settled more comfortably. ‘A new guy’s joining us today and I’d like to introduce you.’
Georgine sat back in her chair again. ‘A staff member? I didn’t know you were recruiting.’
Oggie made a vague cycling motion of his hands. ‘Not formally. But when the right person comes up … I know Joe will make a valuable contribution.’
‘I’m sure,’ she replied politely. ‘What’s his role?’
Oggie’s eyebrows lifted as he considered her question. ‘To be defined. He has broad experience with contemporary bands – road manager and drum technician, and so forth. He could be helpful with lighting rigs and sound desk. I’ll call him in. He’ll have to be accompanied everywhere he might encounter students until his DBS comes through, so I’m landing him on you for a bit.’
Georgine didn’t protest, not just because Oggie was the boss, but because he was the best boss in the world and must have good reason to bring in someone who hadn’t got his Disclosure and Barring Service certificate in order, so she didn’t even look at her watch as he made a call. ‘Joe? Ready for you. Come to reception and Fern will see you to my room.’
It was typical of Oggie to say ‘room’ rather than ‘office’. Georgine had never heard him refer to himself as ‘principal’ and he expected students to address staff by first names. Staff and students alike called him Oggie.
She was roused from these reflections as Oggie’s gaze shifted to the doorway. He smiled. ‘C’mon in, Joe.’
Georgine turned in her seat to offer a friendly greeting. ‘Hi. I’m Georgine France.’
The tall, clean-shaven man with a brutally short haircut blinked at her through thin-rimmed glasses. His expression froze. Then he cleared his throat and muttered, ‘Pleased to meet you. I’m Joe Blackthorn,’ before nodding politely and seating himself in one of the other chairs.
Oggie embarked on outlining to Joe the role Georgine held at Acting Instrumental. Though Georgine played her part in the conversation, warm and welcoming, she was intrigued by the strained behaviour of her new colleague. Somehow, she expected tall, handsome men to be bursting with confidence, yet this one was behaving as if he was suffering severe anxiety. It might explain why Oggie would choose a low-key and unorthodox induction to their establishment.
‘So, Joe,’ Oggie wound up. ‘Stick with Georgine for now. She’ll give you a quick tour and an idea of how we do things.’ Oggie raised his dark eyebrows. ‘That OK? Great.’
Joe evidently understood they were being dismissed and rose, murmuring, ‘Thanks for giving up your time,’ in Georgine’s direction.
Swooping up her file, Georgine replied, ‘Not a problem,’ though having to keep him with her or pass him like a baton to another staff member just added to her load. ‘If we start in the new block, we can finish in this building.’
‘Sure.’ He stood back to let her lead him out to the glass corridor that linked the buildings and gave them a view of a paved area currently empty of anything but benches, flower tubs and twinkling frost.
At the end of the corridor, Georgine turned to her near-silent companion, noticing the way he kept one step behind, as if it was uncomfortable to let his soulful brown eyes meet her gaze. Lifting her voice over a sudden burst of drumming, she said, ‘This block holds sound studios and rehearsal rooms.’ The drumming paused, and the sound of an argument took its place, culminating in a snarled, ‘Tosser! You knew that was mine.’
‘Whoops!’ Georgine quickly followed the sound through a doorway and found a group of teenagers surrounding two gangly lads squaring up to each other, faces red and eyes glittering. One of them was Tomasz, whose good mood over his ‘stiffycut’ appeared not to have lasted.
‘No tutor here yet, guys?’ she asked calmly.
Both heads swivelled her way, faces wearing matching expressions of dismay. Tomasz rubbed his ear sheepishly. ‘Not yet.’
‘We’re waiting for Errol for Music Industry,’ volunteered the other, backing away as if the field of battle had nothing to do with him.
Georgine treated each to a keen stare. ‘I’m sure he’ll be here any time. You don’t need me to wait with you. Do you?’
Both lads flushed and shook their heads.
Georgine beamed. The other students had fallen back to sit on tables or rummage through backpacks. ‘Everybody OK? See you later, then.’ She returned to Joe in the corridor.
He glanced towards the now subdued room they were leaving behind. ‘Do you need to wait for their tutor?’
‘It’s not how we generally do things. The tallest one, Tomasz, can’t always afford things like guitar strings and he gets protective of his possessions, but Oggie likes to treat the students like adults as far as possible. I think they’ll be OK now they’ve let off steam.’ She opened a pair of doors.
‘Oggie was always good at treating kids as if each one mattered.’ Joe stepped into the lofty hall beyond the doors.
Georgine followed him in. ‘Did you work at Oggie’s last place? I know he was head of a big academy in Kent.’
Joe looked away. ‘He taught at my school in Surrey when I was a teen. He put on the plays and concerts and I did scenery shifting and stuff. It took me a while to fit in, but Oggie helped. I kept in touch with him through college and we became friends over the years.’
‘Wow, you’ve known him for ages,’ she said encouragingly. She did the maths in her head, knowing Oggie to be in his mid-forties. ‘The Surrey school must have been one of his first jobs.’
He shrugged.
Nobody could accuse him of drawing things out with his chat, chat, chat, she thought. ‘This is the studio theatre. We’re incredibly lucky to have it. Some rehearsals take place here but we put performances on at the Raised Curtain, a theatre attached to a local academy.’ She cast her satisfied gaze over a drum kit standing near mic stands, amplifiers and equalisers. The front rows of the retractable seating were out but the rest were tidily away like a giant set of drawers ready for rehearsals.
She speeded up as she led the way back up the corridor. ‘The main building used to be a house called Lie Low, the bolthole of a Carry On star and then a shady businessman.’ They passed dance studios, Joe glancing in on students and giving the brief nods he seemed to consider sufficient interaction as Georgine continued to provide background information. ‘Acting Instrumental’s a small independent further education college. Our current roll is eighty-four students across two year-groups. The cafeteria’s through here. Oggie got funding to subsidise lunches so the take-up is high.’ She turned right. ‘This is my room.’ She laughed to see a garland of turquoise tinsel hanging from the handle. ‘I’m collecting Christmas props so people are bringing me their cast offs.’ She whisked past, heading straight for dance rehearsal.
She paused at the door. ‘This is the big rehearsal room. Maddie’s working with dance students on our Christmas show, A Very Kerry Christmas, Uncle Jones. The students are Level 3, which is the same as A Level.’ She stepped inside. At one end of the room a stage space was denoted by yellow gaffer tape on the floor where a small dance troupe was learning a routine.
Maddie glanced round without pausing in her dance. Tall and willowy, her fair hair pulled back in a plait, she flashed a smile before returning her attention to the teenagers who were mirroring her movements. The shuffles and thumps marking the rhythm of their feet made Georgine’s heart lift.
‘Forward, back,’ Maddie called, ‘step-two-three, change, step-two-three, back, leg lift, and chassé … and then we’re ready for the last part of act one, scene two. Let’s try it to music.’ She clicked a small remote in her hand and a lively jive tune burst onto the air.
‘Here we go … two, three and forward, back …’ The troupe moved as one, girls in leggings and boys in jogging pants, all eyes on Maddie unless a head turn was required with a step.
‘Wonderful! Concentrate but don’t frown, chassé, back, leg lift,’ Maddie sang gently. Frowns vanished, limbs moved in time.
Georgine’s toes were already tapping. She whispered to Joe, ‘Each student will keep a progress log: how their creative journey’s developed, decisions made and the effect on the audience. We make rehearsal and show-night videos too.’
‘Great.’ His nod definitely looked approving.
Encouraged by this slight sign of engagement, she went on. ‘We’re extraordinarily proud that we’re open to students’ choices, nurturing them, cheering them on, proactively helping them make whatever they can out of music, dance or drama. A kid can come here without a single GCSE and try vocational qualifications from entry level up to Level 3. The “can do” attitude here is awesome.’ She laughed at her own enthusiasm. ‘I love how amazing, how fantastic Acting Instrumental is.’
Joe actually smiled. ‘I’m sure you’re proud of helping it happen.’ It probably counted as gushing from Mr Chat and Personality.
Georgine turned back to the dancers, jigging on the spot to the catchy number. ‘I need to watch the rest of this rehearsal and get involved. You OK to look on?’
‘Yep.’ But Joe, to Georgine’s surprise, moved further into the room with her to continue the conversation. ‘Will they dance to recordings on the night?’ His hands were stuffed in the pockets of his jeans.
‘No, this is a rehearsal track. The show’s composed by Jasmine, an alumna who went on to university and won a scholarship that paid her final year’s tuition fees. She’s provided rehearsal recordings that her music student mates have played on. We have two bands of our own, but they’re still rehearsing separately at this stage.’
She half expected Joe to look bamboozled by so much detail, but his deep brown eyes were aglow with what looked like satisfaction. ‘Ace.’
Georgine could only agree.
Before them, Maddie was still mirroring the troupe’s routine, occasionally calling out the steps, gaze moving back and forth to monitor each student. Unable to contain her impatient feet, Georgine thrust her shiny Christmas show file at Joe and moved up behind Maddie, picking up the steps to dance along.
A couple of the students grinned her way and Maddie, seeing Georgine in the mirror, implemented an impressively smooth about face to dance opposite Georgine. Forgetting all her pressures and worries, Georgine laughed aloud as the troupe moved forwards and she had to reverse. It was a bit like being Ginger Rogers to a bunch of Fred Astaires … apart from wearing jeans and trainers instead of a swirly dress and heels.
At the close of the segment Maddie called, ‘Three, two, one, cha-cha-cha, and sliiiiiide, jazz hands. Fantastic everybody! Quick break. Grab a drink if you want one.’
Back down to earth now the dancing was done, Georgine caught her breath and approached her colleague. ‘Maddie, I’d better introduce you to the new guy, Joe. Oggie was one of his teachers, apparently, and he has technical experience.’
Maddie sipped from a bottle of water and winked. ‘The cutie rocking the designer specs? What’s he like?’
‘Nice to look at,’ Georgine admitted, ‘but flippin’ hard work. Hardly speaks.’
Yet when she took Maddie over to Joe and made the introductions, Joe flashed a smile, showing no signs of shyness. ‘I’ve really enjoyed watching,’ he told Maddie, and went on for a whole minute about how great the dancers had looked and what a shame it was that there weren’t more male dance students.
Then he turned back to Georgine and returned to using only necessary words. ‘Oggie’s texted. I need to go to Fern’s office and apply for my DBS online.’
‘OK, I’ll show you there.’ Georgine turned back to the dancers. ‘You’re doing brilliantly! I’ll be back shortly.’ Then Georgine delivered Joe to the capable hands of Fern, with her bouffant silver hair and air of unflappable calm.
She skipped back to dance rehearsal trying not to mind that Joe had turned to Fern’s computer with such an obvious expression of relief.
Chapter Two
After filling in all the necessary boxes on-screen and watching Fern check his application before it went off, Joe thanked her and made for Oggie’s room. Pretending not to see the look of reproach in Fern’s eyes because he hadn’t cleared his destination with her, he shut the door.
He flopped into the same brown chair he’d occupied earlier, threw off his glasses and covered his eyes.
Oggie laughed at his theatrics. ‘What?’
Joe didn’t move. Mortification was easier to deal with from behind eyelids. ‘Georgine France. I was at school with her. Here, not in Surrey. I’m behaving like a teenage doofus around her.’
Oggie stopped laughing. ‘Oh! Will it be a problem?’
Joe pressed his palms harder against his face, the short, freshly cut ends of his hair and his close-shaved cheeks feeling weird to his touch. Since he’d gone clean-cut he felt a stranger to himself. ‘I don’t know.’
‘Did she recognise you?’
‘No sign of it. Everyone changes a lot between fourteen and thirty-four. When I knew her I was blond and scrawny and looked as if I lived in a skip.’
Oggie’s voice dropped sympathetically. ‘You’re not that person now. Did you know her well?’
Slowly, Joe slid his hands down from his eyes, blinking at the raw winter light streaming through the window. ‘Reasonably.’ Then, because he’d never wanted to bullshit Oggie, corrected himself. ‘We were friends from age eleven to fourteen.’ He sucked in a huge calming breath. ‘I had the most gigantic, painful crush on her. She was one of the popular girls. Her dad had money and she went on holidays abroad and had dancing and singing lessons after school. The princess to my pauper.’
‘A monied princess?’ Oggie looked slightly surprised.
‘Compared to me. She came to Bettsbrough Comp on the bus from Middledip or in a posh car. I lived on the crappiest estate in Bettsbrough with a couple of alcoholics masquerading as parents. The Shetland estate was known as “Shitland” back then and I was part of the infamous Shitland gang, but she was always nice to me.’ He swallowed. ‘I recognised her instantly. Not even Georgine’s sister had the same unusual colouring.’ Her hair was what she’d used to tell him was ‘cool strawberry blonde’, her skin golden and spangled with faint freckles like a blonde photographed through the palest sepia filter. Except for her eyes. Not green, nor grey or blue, but a mix of the three, like a winter sea.
He’d had to paint her portrait once in art class and the teacher had said, ‘Good effort!’ Some of his moron mates from the Shitland gang had jeered and so he’d painted the ends of her hair like worms, because clowning around was a good way to distract them from how he’d felt about Georgine. He was the fool, the kid who never had the right shoes or uniform or PE kit. The one whose stepdad was known throughout the town by just his surname, Garrit, and ridiculed, along with Joe’s mum, for being drunk on cheap lager almost every day.
Garrit hadn’t been funny to live with.
In fact, not much about Joe’s life had been funny. If he hadn’t developed strategies to make people laugh with him instead of at him he would have punched their stupid heads in for not using their stupid eyes to see how stupidly unfunny it was to be him.
He rose on what felt like hollow legs to get a drink from the small cooler in the corner. ‘She doesn’t know me as Joe Blackthorn, or by my full first names, John Joseph.’ He kept his back to his friend as he sipped from the flimsy disposable cup. ‘You probably remember me telling you I had my stepdad’s surname from the age of two or three. Then all the Shitland gang got nicknames and mine was “Rich” because I wasn’t. Everybody called me Rich Garrit.’
He dropped back into his chair and sent Oggie a rueful smile. ‘Sorry to be a diva. It was a shock to see Georgine and after the crap that’s happened with the band lately …’
Oggie nodded, not rushing in with platitudes or questions, but letting Joe work through things in his own time, just as he had all those years ago. His Uncle Shaun had rescued Joe from Cambridgeshire and put him in the school in Surrey with, for the first time, all the right uniform and all the right PE kit. Even the right haircut. If he hadn’t had the right accent to begin with, well, he’d soon changed that. He’d claimed the name on his birth certificate, but chosen to be Joe instead of Johnjoe, which his mother had called him, another way of disassociating himself from what he’d used to be.
He still remembered the pleasure and relief of blending in.
Freed of the expectation of clowning, he’d worked at the subjects he liked, such as music and art. Oggie had noticed him spending break times alone and got him painting scenery for school plays. He’d made friends.
It was to Oggie that he’d admitted his uncle was teaching him piano and drums. Oggie who talked to Shaun about weekend sessions at a local stage school; Oggie who’d arranged extra music lessons so Joe got the GCSE he needed for a place at music college. There he’d got together with Billy, Liam, Nathan and Raf and his life had changed again …
‘If you’re going to stay here, you’re going to encounter Georgine a lot,’ Oggie said, jerking Joe back to the present. ‘She’s at the heart of Acting Instrumental. We did talk about the possibility, even probability, of you meeting your past head-on if you came.’
‘Yeah.’ Joe drummed his fingertips on his leg. ‘I could have coped with anyone better than her.’
Oggie grunted. ‘Perhaps you should consider how you’ll feel if she remembers you. It might be easier if you remind her first. Get it over with.’
‘Yeah.’ He tried to envisage it. Those green eyes had gazed at him with zero recognition, as if Rich Garrit had never existed, which made him both glad and sorry. ‘It could be a tactical lack of memory on her part. We parted on bad terms.’
Because he’d acted like a moron on the last day of term before Christmas. Made her the object of ridicule because he knew that baring his young heart in front of the Shitland gang would have set her up for cruel teasing. But the hurt in her eyes had sent him home hating himself, vowing to apologise at the school Christmas party that evening.
But Georgine hadn’t shown up. He’d waited outside because he didn’t have the entrance money – or anything to wear or a gift for the Secret Santa.
Eventually, he’d trailed home to find waiting for him an uncle he hadn’t known he had, ready to transform his life.
Joe’s Christmas miracle, fairy godfather and Secret Santa rolled into one. He’d gone to live with Shaun in Surrey and rarely looked back.
When he did, it was to think about Georgine France.
Chapter Three
At lunchtime, Georgine knew she had to let life outside Acting Instrumental intrude, so held back from the rush to the cafeteria. Zipping herself into her jacket, which was an inadequate defence against the sharp wind unless you were running, she slipped outside. She rounded the jut of the big rehearsal room to huddle behind the main building. The garden there was frequented mostly in summer sunshine when the grassy area held more attraction.
She hunched her shoulders against the wind blowing from Siberia, took a deep breath and rang Aidan, knowing that the man who answered would be a lot different to the one she’d met a couple of years ago on a rare visit to a nightclub with Blair. She’d been attracted to his happy-go-lucky nature, maybe because she felt she always had to be so sensible and together. Unfortunately, the happy-go-luckyness later proved to be hugely dependent on the ‘happy’ part. When the going got tough Aidan had retreated into bad moods and deception. He’d even begun taking money from her purse with the excuse that ‘couples share’. When she discovered he’d been unable to pay his share of the household bills and had continually lied that he had savings to cover them, it was the last straw. It was months since she’d called time on their relationship and asked him to move out of her house, yet still she was suffering the repercussions of being involved with him.
He answered, ‘’Lo, Georgine.’ His voice was just as smooth and deep as it had been when it used to curl her toes, but he also sounded down and defeated.
He wasn’t the only one having a hard time. She dived in. ‘Please sort your debts out. I had collection agents knocking at the door while I was eating my porridge this morning.’
‘No money,’ he replied listlessly.
‘Well, tell them that! You’ve been gone for three months. Stop them coming to my house or give me an address I can pass on.’ She waited. ‘Aidan?’ She checked her phone screen and glared at it. Call ended.
She counted slowly to ten, annoyed with herself for venting. Since being made redundant from his job as a commercial executive for a huge car manufacturer Aidan didn’t really handle anger.
After three minutes of pacing and huddling into her jacket, Georgine rang back. ‘Look, Ade,’ she said, pouring syrup on her voice. ‘I understand you got in a muddle with money and didn’t feel you could tell me.’
‘Because you’re funny with money. I was protecting you,’ he put in morosely.
Georgine closed her eyes and tilted her face to the sky. ‘OK, because I’m scared of financial pressure.’
‘Yet you give Blair money. And your dad.’
Her nails dug into her palms. ‘You know I feel an obligation.’
‘Yeah, I know the whole sad story, even if I don’t understand it.’
Georgine refused to let herself be sidetracked into explaining yet again why she helped her dad and sister, but didn’t have a pot of gold handy for Aidan. ‘I understand that, in law, I’m as liable as you are for the unpaid utility bills, even if those were your agreed responsibility. I sold the jewellery you gave me to offset some, and the rest I’m paying off as I can manage it. But I can’t cover whatever other liabilities you took on unbeknownst to me while you lived at my place, even if I wanted to. So please contact the organisations concerned and tell them not to come knocking at the door of 27 Top Farm Road. Explain you no longer live there.’
Aidan sighed. ‘But you can tell them.’
Revulsion shivered through her. ‘I don’t want to speak to debt collectors! It’s your responsibility …’ She recognised the futility of talking to Aidan about responsibility and changed tack. ‘I’m only asking you to stop them turning up at my door.’
‘There are websites that tell you what to do when that happens,’ he said with irritating calm. ‘They say don’t panic. Don’t let them in; complain to their company if they intimidate you.’
‘I don’t want to talk to them to find out which company they’re from! And I can’t help panicking.’ If she clenched her eyes shut any harder she’d bring on a migraine. Her voice rose, despite her best efforts. ‘If I lose my house because of you—’
He sighed. ‘Did I ever ask to use the house as security? No. Then how can you lose it because of me?’
Sleepless nights worrying through all the worst possible outcomes had provided the answer to this one. ‘If I can’t meet my mortgage because I’m catching up on all the bills you left unpaid! Or I miss a catch-up payment and the utility company takes me to court.’
It was Georgine who ended the call this time. How could Aidan have changed so much? Until last year he’d held down a good job, worn an expensive suit and driven a late-model car. But when the job went as the company restructured, everything good about him had followed.
In the early days, she’d loved his joy in life, not realising until everything went wrong how heavily he’d depended not only on a fresh pile of money hitting his bank account each month but bonuses coming along twice a year to wipe clean his credit card excesses. It became obvious that saving up had never been in his psyche.
With a sigh that matched any of the pitiful ones Aidan had been heaving down the phone, she blinked open her eyes, unclenched her fists and used the fingers of her gloves to wipe stray tears from beneath her eyes, then looked up and saw Joe standing motionless on the outside staircase that rose up the side of the building. Watching her.
She jumped, then, hoping he’d been too far away to overhear her conversation, forced herself to smile and call up to him. ‘Hello. Are you lost? Those stairs lead to some kind of private apartment. The landlord keeps it separate and Oggie says it’s not in our lease.’
He glanced down at the staircase beneath his feet. ‘Right. Thanks. That would explain why up here wasn’t included in your tour.’ He ran lightly down to ground level. ‘Oggie said to talk to you about the Christmas show. He thinks you might like lighting and sound taken off your hands.’ Joe looked much more self-possessed than he had this morning, even if he talked slowly, quietly, as if he were testing every word before letting it loose.
‘Would I ever. I’ll take you through what you need to know,’ she said promptly. She didn’t bother reminding him he wasn’t supposed to be wandering around unaccompanied, because she hadn’t given any thought to his whereabouts after he’d gone off to the admin office during dance rehearsal and probably she should have. Georgine gave a last sniff and pushed Aidan and his troubles into a mental ‘worry about this when I’m not at work’ box. ‘I’m going for lunch. Shall we walk over together?’
‘That would be great.’ Joe flashed a smile. It was so unexpectedly warm that she grinned back as if she’d known him for much longer than a few hours.
Lunch break was half over and tables were freeing up when they reached the cafeteria, though the noise level was only a couple of decibels below deafening. Georgine was convinced that some students sat two tables away from their friends just so they could shout conversations like, ‘Have you done any of your Christmas shopping yet? No, me neither. Got to get some money first.’
Three lads were picking at guitars, apparently trying to master a tricky bit of fingerwork. It wasn’t unusual to see students turning any spare spot in the college into a rehearsal room.
She went ahead of Joe in the queue in case he wasn’t sure of the system – not that it was hard. You chose your food and drink and paid by scanning your pass, having already credited the cafeteria account linked to it. Accounts could be topped up online, pleasing parents who suspected their kids would use meal money to buy cigarettes or sweets if the actual cash was put in their hands.
Even at staff rates it was an economy to eat a hot meal in the cafeteria at lunchtime. Georgine would content herself with a sandwich or a bowl of soup at home in the evening.
‘Oh,’ said Joe, ruefully, when they got to the head of the queue and he saw Georgine hold out her pass card to be scanned by Celine, who was on the till today. ‘I was supposed to collect my pass from Fern before lunch and I forgot.’ He turned to Celine who, in her blue smock, was waiting patiently. ‘Can I pay in cash today?’
Regretfully, Celine shook her head, complete with hat and hairnet. ‘I’m sorry, darlin’, it’s not a cash till. We don’t have actual money.’
‘Oh.’ Joe dropped his gaze to the contents of his tray: pasta and the biggest latte on offer, garlic bread he’d already taken a bite from and a cereal bar. His face reddened. ‘Erm, I can’t really put this back.’
Celine turned to Georgine. ‘Shall I put it on your card? Then he can give you the cash.’
‘Would you mind?’ Joe switched his gaze to Georgine too, expression hopeful and relieved.
From the scalding in her cheeks Georgine was pretty sure she’d turned every bit as red as him. She didn’t have much choice but to say, ‘Not a bit,’ and proffer her card again, but her heart began a slow descent to her chilly toes.
Celine passed the card beneath the scanner. It beeped angrily. She flashed Georgine a look of surprise, then returned the pass with a shake of her head. ‘I bet it won’t go through twice in a row as some safety precaution.’ She tapped at the till’s screen then said to Joe, ‘I’ve voided your bill for now. Get your card and account sorted and you can pay us tomorrow. You look the honest sort.’ She scribbled down £6.38 on a torn-off receipt, gave it to him with a big smile and moved on to the next in the queue.
Hurrying off towards a half-empty table, Georgine felt as if she’d just missed being hit by a speeding car. She knew very well that the card hadn’t scanned because there wasn’t enough in her cafeteria account after paying for her own lunch. The balance of about four pounds was barely enough for a meal tomorrow, Wednesday, without coffee. The account would top up on payday, Thursday.
For a horrible moment she’d feared Celine would shame her by saying, ‘Not enough money on your card, darlin’.’ But the woman’s eyes had held an apology. She’d realised she’d dropped Georgine in it. Georgine had swung from dread to gratitude in a heartbeat at the way Celine had covered up.
She made a mental note to add her to the ‘gets chocolate brownies at Christmas’ list. She baked a lot of Christmas presents rather than buying them.
Joe cleared his throat as they took seats at a table. ‘Thanks for trying to save my blushes. I feel as if I’m wearing a big sign saying “can’t pay for his own lunch”.’
Seeing that he was genuinely upset, and completely empathising because she hadn’t been able to raise the small sum to pay it for him, Georgine tried to shrug it off. ‘It makes you feel conspicuous, but it’s only an admin issue. Induction days are usually better organised than yours seems to have been.’
Georgine had chosen a vegetable frittata with salad. It was one of her favourite lunches, but today the subject of money was under glaring spotlights in her mind.
Two more paydays till Christmas. She was only able to claim mileage and other show-related expenses retrospectively so she hoped she could afford the extra trips back and forth to Bettsbrough. She was having Dad, Blair and Blair’s boyfriend, Warren, for Christmas dinner. Luckily Mum and her husband, Terrence, would spend Christmas in their French holiday home, so she wouldn’t have to drive to their posh house on the Northumberland coast for a festive visit, but buying Christmas gifts for them was a trial. Terrence was careful with his fortune. He released money for Christmas gifts, but he expected something worthwhile in return. Last year Georgine had bought their presents from charity shops then parcelled them up in dark red tissue paper and stencilled on ‘The Vintage Shop’ in gold, because calling stuff ‘vintage’ increased its value to the power of ten. They’d actually been impressed and Terrence had displayed his wooden letter rack behind glass in their vast sitting room. Luckily, Georgine’s mum, Barbara, never now set foot in Middledip, Bettsbrough or even Peterborough, so couldn’t demand to be taken to the non-existent ‘Vintage Shop’.
Mum and Terrence had bought Georgine cashmere jumpers. She’d run her fingertips over them admiringly, but she’d rather have had winter boots with fleece inside, or a couple of pairs of jeans. She didn’t live a cashmere kind of life.
Joe’s voice jolted her out of her reverie. ‘Do you live in Middledip?’
She blinked, realised her frittata was getting cold and hastily dug into it, nodding while she chewed and swallowed. ‘I did a year at the University of Manchester, but I’ve always lived here otherwise. I rented for a while, but then managed to buy a starter home in the new bit of the Bankside estate.’ And it represented security, at least for so long as she could afford the mortgage.
‘What did you do at uni?’ Joe picked up his mug of latte.
‘A foundation year in performing arts. I would’ve specialised in dance with some singing if I’d stayed, so I could do musical theatre.’ She paused. ‘My parents split up and it was hard for Dad to keep me at uni so I opted to become independent. It’s difficult enough to make a living in the performing arts with a degree so, without one, I didn’t even try. Far too perilous financially! I did lots of teaching assistant stuff, and am dram and open mic in my free time, and then I got this job. I love it so much that I’m just happy I got here, whatever my route. For a long time I regretted not getting the chance to finish uni, but I’m lucky that the qualifications for this role are more about enthusiasm and ability than a degree.’
Joe looked as if he were paying close attention, his brown-eyed gaze steady through his glasses, a perplexed frown puckering the skin at the bridge of his nose.
‘What about you?’ she asked politely, keen to change the subject from the various messes she’d made of her life.
He dropped his eyes to his lunch. ‘I lived in Surrey and London for a lot of the time.’
‘Which part of London?’
‘Various. Camden for the last few years.’ He put a forkful of pasta in his mouth.
She watched him eat it, noticing the firm line of his jaw. ‘Isn’t London crucifyingly expensive?’
He shrugged. ‘If you can shoehorn enough people into one house the rent becomes manageable between you.’ He loaded his fork again. ‘Tell me about the theatre where you’ll put on the Christmas show.’
Georgine was happy to talk about Acting Instrumental and everything attached to it. ‘The Raised Curtain? It’s part of the Sir John Browne Academy, but it’s put to a lot of community use outside school hours. We’re lucky that they let us hire it the week before Christmas. It’s unusual for a student run to last for six shows but we’re ambitious here.’ She went on, Joe asking an occasional question. He was so relaxed and normal now, Georgine felt as if she must have been towing a cardboard cut out of him around this morning. Who would have thought that in a few short hours they’d be well on the way to establishing a rapport?
Chapter Four
Georgine ran home that evening, her backpack bumping in rhythm with her stride and the winter chill nipping at her ears. A hot shower was her first priority. She’d just finished getting dried and dressed when her doorbell rang.
She paused.
When the bell rang again she crept to the head of the stairs, heart jumping. A silhouette at the glass wrapped its arms around itself and hopped from foot to foot. Georgine waited. The silhouette was unmistakably female and none of the collection agents who’d harassed her to date had been, but was this some new gambit to see if she’d be less cautious with one of her own sex?
The silhouette raised her arm, the fist appearing hazily against the glass as she knocked. ‘Georgine! Are you there? Georgine!’
Georgine let out her breath with a whoosh, almost laughing at hearing the impatient tones of her sister, Blair. ‘I’m coming!’ After hurrying down to the hall, she fumbled with the lock and chain and threw open the door.
‘Brrrrr!’ Hunching theatrically, Blair scurried in. ‘It’s like a fridge out there!’ She paused to give Georgine a big chilly hug. ‘Lovely to see you, sis! What are your plans tonight? I’m hoping you don’t have any and we can order a pizza or something. Isn’t your heating on?’ She paused at the thermostat on the hall wall to turn it up.
Georgine, following, turned the thermostat down again. It gave a disappointed click. ‘No money for takeaway.’ She made a mental inventory of the contents of her kitchen. ‘I could make pasta with cheese sauce and a few bits of veg, if you’re not feeling ultra-fussy.’
‘Hmm.’ Blair had reached the kitchen and was already filling the kettle. She turned and gave Georgine one of her beautiful smiles. She took after their dad’s mum, Patty France – pronounced ‘Paddy’ by the American side of the family. Both possessed the same high-wattage smile that made others feel almost lucky to be smiled upon, and melting brown eyes to keep the world under their spell. Patty’s hair had long since turned white, but had once been brown and curly like Blair’s. ‘Got any wine?’ Leaving the kettle to boil, Blair opened the fridge and inspected its contents. Or lack of.
Slowly, she closed the door and turned around to gently run her hands up and down Georgine’s arm, her expression dismayed. ‘You’re not still broke?’
Georgine made a face. ‘I’d be OK if Aidan hadn’t left me in the poo. I get paid on Thursday so I’ll be able to stock up then.’
Blair switched the kettle off. ‘Pop your coat on. Let’s nip to Booze & News for a bottle of wine. My treat,’ she added, picking up her bag.
‘Are you sure? Melanie’s prices are a lot steeper than a supermarket.’ As Blair merely rolled her eyes in reply, Georgine fetched her coat from its usual home on the newel post and zipped it up as they stepped out under the street lights. Top Farm Road was edged by the parked cars of villagers home from work.
‘So you still haven’t paid off the mess sodding Aidan left behind?’ Blair slipped her hands into the pockets of her coat, a colourfully embroidered Joe Brown number. Temperatures had plummeted in Cambridgeshire the moment the calendar flipped to November.
For Blair, Georgine usually made light of her problems, financial or otherwise. Neither of them had ended up with the life they’d expected and the knowledge that Georgine had played a part in their change of fortunes lay between them like a dozing dragon, liable to breathe fire when disturbed.
But fatigue swept over her. She was tired from running to and from work, tired of hiding from creditors she hadn’t wronged, tired of an empty fridge two days before payday. And tired of pretending everything was fine.
‘I’ve made inroads into the outstanding utility bills. The utility companies are only too used to this carry on and they’re letting me catch up the arrears over time,’ she admitted wearily, making for the turn onto Great Park Road and the footpath to Ladies Lane. ‘But now I’m being hunted by debt collectors.’ The final sentence was out before she could run the words through her inner censor. Realising from Blair’s stunned stare how dramatic she sounded, she tried to soften it by adding a laugh.
But the laugh wavered.
By sheer will she forced the tears to the back of her eyes, her throat tightening until it hurt, her fists clenching in her pockets. As the ground was firm and frosty she chose the route over the playing fields instead of turning the corner onto Main Road. There was enough light from surrounding houses to light their way. ‘I try,’ she croaked. ‘I really try not to let the financial situation get to me, but anything to do with debt makes me panic. I relive that implacable lack of sympathy and it makes me feel alone and frightened.’
‘Oh, Georgine!’ Blair gasped, tugging on Georgine’s arm to bring her to a halt. ‘That’s awful! Can’t you report them to someone? They can’t harass you for Aidan’s debts. Tell them to piss off!’
Glad that there was nobody about on the playing fields on this wintry early evening, Georgine buried her face in her sister’s shoulder, the fabric of the stylish coat warm against her cheek. ‘I’m scared to talk to them. Scared that if I say he doesn’t live here now they won’t believe I don’t know his current address – which he won’t tell me! And it’s such a freezing November. The inside of my house feels like Narnia but I daren’t turn the heating on. I su-suppose pipes will begin to burst next. And that can’t happen because I couldn’t afford the payments for the contents insurance so if my carpets get ruined, they stay ruined.’
Blair’s arms tightened around her as she said, ‘Shh,’ comfortingly and ‘Oh, shit, Georgine,’ less comfortingly.
Georgine recovered enough to disengage herself from Blair’s sisterly hug and find a screwed-up tissue in her jeans pocket to trumpet into. ‘Sorry. Things are getting on top of me.’ She made another attempt to laugh, finding it hard to meet her sister’s troubled gaze. ‘You don’t have to worry. I’ll get through this.’
‘Right.’ Blair sounded unconvinced.
‘Honestly, I’m all right,’ Georgine insisted as they resumed their march towards Booze & News. Except for a bone-deep fear – despite Aidan’s probably well-meant but actually empty assurances – that somehow she’d be pulled deeper into his problems and lose her little house. She couldn’t! It was just a modest inner terrace with two bedrooms, one bathroom, a lounge-diner and a kitchen, but it represented the tiny amount of progress she’d made.
She linked arms with her sister, nodding to a dog-walker passing the other way with a snuffly pug. ‘Don’t know what’s wrong with me today. I’m being a wuss.’
‘You’re never a wuss. You’re so brave and resourceful that I suppose anxiety is something I generally think is reserved for other people,’ Blair said quietly. They passed the Angel Community Café, tinsel at the window and lights still showing.
‘Usually is.’ Georgine pushed open the door to Booze & News with a ting!
‘Hello, folks,’ said Melanie from behind the counter. Her eyes fell on Georgine’s face like a missile homing in on its target. ‘What’s the matter?’
Instantly, Georgine wished she’d made Blair come in on her own. Melanie was good-hearted but also uncomfortably inquisitive and red eyes would instantly attract her attention. ‘Nothing,’ Georgine said defensively.
‘We need wine!’ Blair declared dramatically. ‘What’s on promo?’
With a last look at Georgine, Melanie allowed herself to be drawn into a conversation about merlot and Chianti while Georgine pretended to be fascinated by the display of tinned goods near the door. Blair chose the Chianti and paid.
Georgine called, ‘Bye, Melanie!’ and turned for the door.
‘I’ve won a cake,’ Melanie called out, halting her.
When Georgine reluctantly turned back she saw Melanie was holding out an orange raffle ticket, her expression sympathetic. ‘Here,’ Melanie said gruffly. ‘I won it in one of Carola’s everlasting raffles and I’m doing Slimming World so you’d better eat it instead of me. You need to take this to the Angel Community Café. If you go now you might get them before they close.’
Warmth washed through Georgine. She’d known Melanie for over five years and was well aware how much she loved her cake. ‘That’s so nice of you—’
‘Just grab it before she changes her mind,’ Blair joked, twitching the ticket from Melanie’s fingers. ‘Thanks, Mel. You’re a sweetie. C’mon, sis.’
Heart soothed by this gesture from such an unexpected quarter, Georgine followed Blair back to the Angel, pushing open the door to find blonde Carola who ran the café busy mopping the floor.
‘Sorry, ladies, I’m shutting up.’ Carola dipped the mop in the bucket and worked a noisy lever with her foot to squeeze the excess water out.
Blair brandished the raffle ticket and, with a keen glance at Georgine, who, despite her experiences at Booze & News, had been too cold to wait outside, Carola went off to the fridge to fetch a boxed cake.
‘Chocolate and pear gateau,’ she announced. ‘I’ll sell you tickets for the Christmas hamper raffle another time. Have a happy evening.’
They stepped back into the dark evening again, Blair carefully bearing the cake box. ‘I must look pathetic,’ Georgine sighed. ‘Melanie gave up cake for me and Carola let me get away without buying a raffle ticket.’
Blair shifted the box so she could give Georgine a one-armed hug as they stepped back into the playing fields. ‘It’s the village. They take care of their own.’
Once home, they dined on Chianti and large slices of gateau. Blair became quieter and quieter. A frown lodged itself on her brow and stayed there.
After a while, Georgine ventured: ‘Is something wrong?’
Blair’s forehead smoothed straight away. ‘Should there be?’ But then, while Georgine was clearing up, she announced abruptly, ‘Just popping to the bathroom,’ and quit the little kitchen.
The sound of Blair’s footsteps diminished as she walked up the stairs. Georgine, wiping surfaces, kept one ear on the sounds from overhead. Blair seemed to be meandering about. Maybe she was peering out of each window, worried about lurking debt collection agents.
Georgine sighed. She hoped she hadn’t put the wind up Blair so much that now her sister was feeling anxious.
Blair reappeared eventually, frowning heavily and looking pale, though she managed to smile at the storyboards Georgine had just pulled out of her backpack. ‘I can imagine all those funky students plastered in sequins and glitter for a Christmas show.’
Attuned to Blair’s moods and reading the signs of misery in her dark eyes, Georgine put down the board she’d been considering. ‘What’s the matter?’
Blair made an attempt at a carefree smile. ‘What do you mean?’ Then abruptly clamped a hand over her eyes. ‘Oh, shit,’ she breathed, her voice squeaking in her throat.
Alarmed, Georgine guided her sister to one of the dining chairs. ‘So something is wrong,’ she exclaimed.
Blair allowed her head to drop onto Georgine’s shoulder. ‘I wish I didn’t have to tell you this right now. I’ve been racking my brains for alternatives but I’ve come up empty.’ She heaved a sigh that stirred the ends of Georgine’s hair, and Georgine’s heart fluttered unpleasantly, all kinds of unwelcome scenarios of illness flashing through her imagination.
‘Please tell me,’ she breathed.
Blair groaned. Then she sat up straight with the air of one who was pulling herself together, though her eyes still brimmed. ‘It’s over between Warren and me. We’ve had a humongous row and he told me to leave.’
Georgine stared, searching her sister’s tear-streaked face. ‘No! He adores you. His eyes follow you round like a spaniel—’
Blair scrubbed her cheeks with her palms. ‘Not any more. He’s tired of what he calls my “money-pit ways”. We’ve been having problems. You’ve had enough to worry about so I haven’t let on, but it’s all been building and –’ her voice began to wobble ‘– last night he told me he was throwing me out of the last chance saloon. I took today off work to pack my things.’
‘But surely …’ Georgine broke off, unable to categorically deny that Blair was bad with money. She threw it at anything that took her fancy. Automatically stroking her sister’s hand, Georgine thought of the mini-break she and Blair had shared in October half-term – Warren hadn’t been able to take the time off work so Blair had invited Georgine to the smart barn conversion in the country in his stead. They’d each had a king-sized bedroom and sumptuous en-suite, and it had still left a bedroom empty. Georgine had thought at the time that it was pretty extravagant for two people.
Since then, she’d been sucked into the whirl of putting on the Christmas show, more concerned with how to evoke Christmas with a black curtain and a twist of tinsel than how things were going in her sister’s life. ‘Oh, Blair,’ she breathed remorsefully. ‘I didn’t realise.’ She blinked hard.
Blair’s attempt to laugh caught and broke. ‘All we’ve done tonight is say “oh, Blair” or “oh, Georgine”. What a pair.’ She found a tissue in her pocket and blew her nose, then tossed back her hair. ‘You won’t believe this but I came here to ask you to put me up until I sorted myself out. What timing, eh? Just what you don’t need.’ She propped her elbow on the table dispiritedly.
Georgine gazed at her sister, having an idea of what was coming next and knowing she’d be incapable of refusing.
‘Unless …’ Blair went on tentatively. ‘Unless it’s actually exactly what you do need? What if I did move in here? A rent-paying lodger would help you out too. You’d be able to have the heating on and catch up the arrears on the utilities much sooner.’
Georgine tried to compose her features into an expression of neutrality, but it was hard to fall on the suggestion with a cry of joy. ‘Are you sure you’d really like it, Blair? My second bedroom is tiny. Teeny-tiny.’ The sound of Blair’s footsteps tracking restlessly from room to room upstairs made sense now. She must have been assessing the space, trying to envisage herself moving from Warren’s spacious four-bedroomed house in Peterborough to a small share of Georgine’s bijou abode. That she even saw it as an option spoke volumes for her situation.
Blair must be desperate.
‘Of course, it goes without saying that you can stay,’ Georgine said quickly. ‘It’s just that you’d have to be tidy because the house is so small that you can’t move if you just dump stuff all over the place. It’s a far cry from Warren’s big, bay-fronted detached.’
Blair made a face. ‘You make it sound like a palace.’
‘It might be, compared to this,’ Georgine pointed out. ‘Big rooms, high ceilings, an attic conversion.’ Mostly full of the detritus of either Warren’s life or Blair’s.
Blair inspected her nail varnish, lower lip jutting. ‘That attic conversion was tiny really.’
‘But bigger than I could offer you here.’ Georgine tried a joke. ‘The box you keep your Christmas decorations in is probably bigger than my spare room.’ Then, gently, Georgine reached out and stroked Blair’s shining hair. ‘You’re welcome to come. It’s just that you’ll have to be really, really realistic about two things.’
Tipping her head back, Blair closed her eyes with a mock groan. ‘Don’t come all big sister on me!’
Georgine pressed on remorselessly. ‘You do have to pay rent, I can’t afford to feed you or face an increase in household bills. And you’d have to respect my space.’
‘Because you freak if there’s a thing out of place.’ Blair sighed.
It seemed an unnecessarily harsh description, but Georgine accepted that her sister was emotional and anxious. ‘I don’t like to live in chaos, that’s true.’ Whereas Blair, smiling and sunny, expansive and generous, lived as if she truly didn’t notice when she put something down and never touched it again. Magazines, make-up, shoes, clothes seemed to whirl into new and unexpected resting places in her wake. Doors and drawers opened themselves and never shut. A mountain of unwashed dishes had usually ornamented the worktop in the vague vicinity of Warren’s dishwasher – and there was no such thing as a dishwasher at Georgine’s.
Blair blew out her cheeks and gazed at the ceiling as if looking for inspiration there. ‘I can’t move in with Dad.’
‘No. You’d affect his benefits,’ Georgine agreed, which happened to be true. More importantly, she’d give her own room up to Blair rather than let her burst in and disrupt their dad’s already difficult existence.
‘It’s not fair on him since he had his stroke,’ Blair insisted, as if Georgine had disagreed with her. ‘He needs his space and his routine.’ She paused and sighed, her eyes once again bright with tears. ‘I hate to see him living on sickness benefits but he’s never going to be able to work himself into a better income bracket now, is he?’
Guilt and regret lurched into Georgine’s gut. ‘No.’
Blair’s gaze flew to Georgine’s face. ‘Sorry, I didn’t mean to sound … It’s just that he used to be so different. We all were.’
‘It’s OK.’ Georgine didn’t need to be told everything her sister wasn’t saying about the spacious home Randall France once provided for his family via Randall France Construction. She also had vivid memories of fab holidays in Malta and Italy, the indulgent Christmases that had seemed to begin weeks in advance of December the 25th, sometimes involving extended trips to America to visit their grandparents, Earl and Patty, when relatives both close and distant had crowded in to join the fun.
Randall France had been so vital then, pushing his business to new heights through hard work, vision and ambition – though a little caution and consolidation wouldn’t have gone amiss, it later turned out when Georgine had been nineteen and Blair nearly seventeen.
‘Maybe I should give Mum a call and ask to move in with them,’ Blair mused caustically. ‘Good old Terrence might give me money to go away.’
Glad of this small break in the tension, Georgine rolled her eyes. ‘And you think I’m a neat freak? Compared to Terrence I’m a slattern.’ She suppressed a sigh as she got up, knowing herself to be the best option for her sister, at least for a month or two. Though Blair was too nice to actually say ‘you owe me’, Georgine did, in fact, owe her, so she’d shove aside her misgivings and welcome the additional income.
‘You can move in whatever you need to.’
Instantly, Blair’s dazzling smile flashed out as she leapt to her feet. ‘I’ll be a model lodger, I promise.’
‘I know. You might be right that this could work for both of us.’ Georgine accepted her sister’s effusive hug. Crossing her fingers behind Blair’s back, she wondered whether Blair was doing the same behind hers.
Chapter Five
The next morning sped by for Georgine. Joe had been co-opted into something by Oggie and she was glad to be able to focus on her job.
After lunch, she made contact with Joe and took him to her room to give him a flavour of the show and what he’d need to know to take on the lighting. ‘Come in,’ she said, opening the door. ‘It looks more chaotic than it is. And sorry about the huge Christmas tree in the corner. It’s a prop. I’ll move it – oh, damn, hang on.’ Her phone had begun to ring.
While she talked, Joe wandered about the room, running his eyes over rehearsal schedules stuck to the wall and sequins and glitter gracing the table.
‘Sorry,’ she said when the call finally ended. ‘But that was exciting! A local small theatre company, the Bettsbrough Players, is folding and they’re offering us their costumes and props. How brilliant is that? For us, not them, obviously,’ she added with a wince.
‘Brilliant,’ he agreed.
She glanced at her watch. The afternoon was running away and she still had to go through things with Joe. He must be bored to tears. ‘Just need to email Oggie to get his OK to collect the stuff.’ She opened her laptop and rushed through the email.
Then she grinned. ‘Right. Event orientation. This’ – she tapped her shiny folder lying on the table – ‘is the production file – my bible.’ She opened the ring binder and flicked through a few pages, halting at a table. ‘This might look like a cross between word search and twister, but to me it represents who’ll be on stage in act one, scene one.’
Joe took the chair beside hers as she explained the initials and arrows. She soon became over-aware of his proximity; even a nod seemed to disturb the air that surrounded them both. It was distracting.
She turned a page. ‘I’ll try and give you a feel for the show. Two acts: three scenes in the first and four in the second. Eleven songs. Rehearsals going well but work still to do on transitions, which is the way people move on and off between scenes or songs.’ She paused to glance at his profile. Perhaps he felt the air move between them, too, because he turned slightly and made eye contact. He’d evidently got over his shyness. She went on, ‘The first and last scenes are full-company musical. We have forty-two students to give stage space to. The show’s the backbone of this module and crucial to their courses.’
She flipped to the cast list. ‘Kerry Christmas is the female lead and Uncle Jones, the male. Other major characters are Kerry’s parents, Mr and Mrs Christmas, brother, Casper Christmas, Auntie Jones and Jones kids, plus a TV presenter. Then there are the minor roles – gang members, police officers and neighbourhood kids.’
She turned to look at him again. His eyes were dark but lit by tiny glints of gold. His gaze flickered to her mouth for an instant, making her concentration waver. ‘The storyline,’ she went on, ‘is that rich Uncle Jones always invites the Christmases to join the Joneses for the festive season. Then Kerry sees one of those Crimewatch-type TV programmes and recognises Uncle Jones as the leader of a gang of crooks. She realises where all his money comes from and has to decide whether to dob him in.’
‘Presumably she’s got to,’ Joe observed. ‘Or else the message is that crime pays. That gangs are OK.’
Georgine was pleased at his understanding of the world of fiction. ‘Absolutely! But apart from turning against this man she’s always thought is a generous uncle, Kerry has the problem of how to tell her mum, who loves her brother. The trigger is when Kerry discovers her own brother, Casper, is to work with Uncle Jones.’
Joe frowned. ‘Poor Casper’s being sucked into a gang?’
Georgine nodded, charmed at how quickly he’d become caught up in the story. ‘Jasmine’s done a great job with offering the audience food for thought. It’s a colourful storyline, but we have to remember it was written for Level 3 students to perform. It makes imaginative use of a dual stage. We hope for a lot of bums on seats.’
Joe propped his chin on his fist. ‘Dual stage?’
‘We split the stage and have different things going on. Like, take act one, scene two, Kerry’s bedroom in the Jones household.’ Quickly, she explained how one side of the stage would carry the TV-programme action while Kerry ‘watched it on TV’ from the other side.
She reached out for a pile of large cards. ‘I’ve storyboarded the show, in a scribbly sort of way. There’s a board for every scene or segment and when I get them done there will be one for every transition.’
Joe drew a couple of the large white cards towards him and examined them. ‘Who’s responsible for set design?’
Georgine rubbed her nose. ‘Ultimately, I am. We don’t have a big budget for it but minimal’s fine, a backdrop and a few sparkly props, because we need a lot of stage space for song-and-dance numbers. Scene changes take place under dimmed lights, props whisked away or repositioned by scene shifters dressed in black.’
He smiled reminiscently. ‘I used to be responsible for props for school productions sometimes.’
She grabbed his arm. ‘If you can look after props I’m going to eat you up.’
Catching his eyebrows shooting up, she blushed, hurriedly removing her hand from his arm. ‘Eat you up’ was not the right phrase to use when you’d only just met a man. Colleague. She made her voice more businesslike. ‘Sorry. I wanted to give you an overview so you could begin thinking about lighting and suddenly I’m twisting your arm about props! We’ve six weeks to the first night, so plenty of time to pull things together.’
‘If I can borrow the storyboards I can start thinking about the tech.’ Joe stood up, reaching out.
Instinctively, Georgine put her hand on the boards. Then felt stupid as she saw his astounded expression, and laughed. ‘Sorry, I’m like a tiger with my storyboards and production file.’
Joe’s eyes danced with amusement behind his glasses. ‘How about I take photos of each with my phone? If you’re certain I can’t borrow them even for so long as it takes to pass them through a photocopier.’
Reluctantly, Georgine grinned back, pushing the boards towards him. ‘I’m being an idiot. The students should have all left, so take the boards to Fern’s office and get them copied. But I do need them back for the four o’clock meeting,’ she added.
He took the stack, backing towards her door. ‘You’ll have them.’ He smiled and she found herself smiling back. Even if he’d spent the first morning with her tongue-tied, it somehow felt as if she’d known Joe Blackthorn for more than a day.
Outside the door, Joe smacked his forehead, hissing, ‘Get a grip, you sad sack of shit!’ to himself as he strode down the corridor. A couple of female cafeteria staff coming the other way grinned, obviously having overheard. He nodded to them gravely and stood aside to let them pass.
As they rounded the corner he heard them dissolve into gales of laughter. Fantastic. He managed the fifty yards to admin without making a further prat of himself and asked Fern if he could use the photocopier.
Instantly, she jumped up, pushing up her glasses. ‘I can do that for you.’
‘That’s really kind.’ He gave her a smile, making her smile back and blush. ‘But don’t disturb yourself. As I’m so new I’m sure I have nowhere near as much to occupy me as you do.’
‘Well, if you’re sure …’ She fluttered back to her seat at the computer.
‘And Georgine will have a nervous breakdown if I let anybody touch these without her permission.’
Fern giggled. ‘Dear Georgine. She does get invested.’
‘I’m beginning to realise.’ It took only ten minutes for Joe to complete his task, feeding the copier while it sighed bzzzzzzzzzzclunk, freeing his mind to reflect on the scalding wave of lust that had surged through him when Georgine said I’m going to eat you up. Ohhhhhh mannnnnn, if she only knew what boyhood fantasies she’d awoken. He really hoped she hadn’t seen him look at her mouth. Then when she’d likened herself to a tiger it had swept him back to a long-ago drama lesson.
He’d had to stop himself from blurting, ‘Do you remember when we were all given a character and location prompt? I got “tiger” and “party” and stalked around the room tripping drunkenly over my “paws”. When I roared at the same time as getting the hiccups you laughed so hard you had to lie down.’
But he hadn’t said it.
Because he couldn’t bring himself to remind her of the shitty way he’d let that long ago friendship end.
Not knowing whether to be glad or sorry that she showed no signs of recognising him, he sighed as he closed the photocopier lid on the last card and the machine thanked him with another bzzzzzzzzzzclunk. Maybe he should get it over with and tell her who he was. But what if, despite them being all grown up now, he saw dislike in her eyes before she was able to put on a let’s-keep-it-professional face? What if his betrayal, even stemming from teenage clumsiness and desperation as it had, had stuck with her? It was only day two but he was enjoying his escape to Acting Instrumental, seeing Oggie again. And working with Georgine … The weeks before he came here had been so shitty that—
From behind him, Fern queried, ‘Everything all right, dear?’
He jumped, realising that he was standing still and gazing at his completed copying. ‘Yes, thanks for letting me use the machine.’ He gave her another smile.
‘Joe?’ Oggie’s voice floated out of his room. ‘Just hang on and I’ll walk along with you to the production meeting.’
‘So will I,’ confided Fern. ‘I’m the performance prompter, you know,’ she added importantly.
‘OK.’ Joe settled down to wait politely. Perhaps he could use the time to coach himself into not turning into a buffoon every time Georgine France smiled. Or said things like eat you up.
Instead, he spent the time wondering who Georgine had been talking to on the phone yesterday lunchtime as he’d paused on the steps in the freezing air. He’d heard enough to learn that the conversation had been about money. Or lack of – and that so wasn’t the Georgine France he remembered.
Chapter Six
Georgine so loved everything about putting on a show that even production meetings felt like fun.
Errol, head of music, arrived first, checking out the refreshments. ‘What, no biccies? No milk?’
Errol wasn’t Georgine’s favourite amongst the staff. When she thought of him the word ‘weasel’ often popped into her head, not just because of his sharp features but because he was the world’s best at weaselling out of work. Being head of music automatically made him Assistant Director (Music) in the show but he frequently forgot or dodged his tasks.
‘There’s whitener,’ Georgine pointed out. ‘Sorry about the biscuits but you’re like a plague of biscuit locusts and can munch through a packet on your own.’ Also, she hadn’t got to Aldi in Bettsbrough where she could get three packs for the price she’d pay for one at the village shop.
Errol grinned and let it go.
People arrived in a constant stream after that.
She waited patiently for the queue for the hot water dispenser to disperse and shuffling to subside. Her ears pricked up as she heard a familiar, good-humoured voice in the corridor and Oggie strolled in, filling the doorway with his bulk for a moment as he exhibited the coffee mug he held. ‘Hope nobody minds me bringing my own.’ He glanced behind him then stepped aside. ‘And here’s Joe Blackthorn, our new staff member. Some of you have met him already.’
Georgine was surprised when her stomach gave a little hop as Joe stepped into the room and, with a flourish, placed her storyboards in front of her. She pushed the puzzling reaction aside. ‘Are there enough seats?’
She knew there were. She was good at detail. It was part of her armoury if anyone – like Errol – tried to pretend they hadn’t agreed to something, because she could usually produce the relevant note and the date on which it was made. She lifted her voice. ‘Shall we begin?’
‘But I can smell Oggie’s proper coffee and it’s giving me coffee-envy,’ Errol complained, gazing with dissatisfaction at his cup of instant.
‘Oggie brought his own. Nothing to stop you doing the same in the future.’ Georgine glanced at her agenda. ‘Oggie’s already introduced new recruit Joe, who’s agreed to head up the tech work and help look after props.’ She paused to allow for an exchange of greetings. ‘Are we off book with any scenes yet, Keeley?’
Keeley, pushing back her mousey hair, looked apologetic. ‘They’re still using scripts. It’s a bit early to be off book.’
Georgine turned to Errol before he could begin checking his watch or heaving sighs. ‘So, Errol. How’s the music going?’
Errol folded his arms and made a sorrowful face. ‘Just not enough hours in the working day to keep up with your schedule, Georgine. I’ve got teaching hours, planning, marking—’
‘Can you give me some idea of where you’re at?’ Georgine interrupted sweetly. Errol loved to paint himself as put upon. She made an effort not to let her irritation come through in her voice as she typed Errol behind schedule on her meeting notes. Then Errol got down to his report and actually wasn’t behind schedule at all so she overwrote her last note with Errol is an attention-seeking drama queen instead.
The meeting progressed. Georgine’s list of tasks grew. With one eye on the clock, remembering she had to change for the run home, she dealt briskly with the remaining items on the agenda.
‘Any other business?’ she asked at length, glancing round. A couple of people began to lever themselves from their chairs, evidently keen to get away.
Oggie raised his hand. He sent her one of his most cherubic smiles, as if divining her disappointment that she couldn’t wrap things up yet. ‘A little more on Joe’s role.’
Georgine glanced at Joe, who looked bemused to find himself popped into the meeting spotlight.
‘As Georgine said, Joe’s already taken responsibility for tech and props,’ Oggie continued. ‘So – and sorry I haven’t had a moment to speak to you about this first, Georgine – I propose to give him the title of assistant events director. For those of you who don’t know, Joe’s been a road manager and drum tech with commercial bands so has the experience to make himself useful.’
‘Oh,’ said Georgine, surprised that ultra-courteous and professional Oggie would spring it on her that Joe’s role was to concern her quite that comprehensively. ‘I mean yes, of course. Great.’
She switched her gaze to Joe, meaning to send him a welcoming smile, but was brought up short by the astonished look Joe was sending Oggie, who merely smiled gently and cocked a quizzical eyebrow. ‘Erm …’ she added, discomfited. ‘So long as Joe’s happy with it.’
Joe’s expression switched to neutral. ‘Delighted.’
Georgine wouldn’t have minded knowing why he actually looked shocked rather than ‘delighted’.
Chapter Seven
A debt-collector-free doorstep for eight days! Yay! Blair’s boxes and bags lying everywhere in the house apart from Georgine’s bedroom? Not so yay.
Georgine made a big effort to focus on the relief of having no looming silhouettes at her front door this week and kept her thoughts on Blair’s encroaching possessions to herself. Blair, after all, was making the best of having barely enough space to stand up in.
‘If I get the loft ladder down this evening we could put some of your stuff up there.’ Georgine tried to make it more of a statement than a question.
Blair grimaced from in front of the bathroom mirror, where she was applying her third coat of mascara. ‘Not if there are spiders.’
‘I had it de-spidered only last week,’ Georgine coaxed.
‘Yeah, right.’ Blair laughed. ‘Gotta get to work. Sales executives have to look willing.’ Blair spent her days selling products to the hospitality industry. She threw her mascara down beside her make-up bag and whirled from the mirror, performing a little shuffle to pass Georgine in the bathroom doorway. ‘Laters, sis! Mwah!’
‘Laters,’ Georgine echoed, watching Blair trot downstairs, step elegantly into the navy metallic kitten-heeled shoes she’d left beside the front door and breeze from the house. In her wake, silence reigned.
Before doing her own eyeliner and mascara, Georgine moved the make-up Blair had left balanced behind the taps to one side of the shelf above. Her own stuff had already been shunted to the right to make room. I’m not a neat freak, she assured an imaginary Blair in her head. She grinned at her reflection. Much. Her eyes took about two minutes to Blair’s ten, then she hurried to grab her backpack, glad there was nothing to prevent her from jumping into her trusty old Ford Fiesta to drive to work.
She was soon absorbed in her day at Acting Instrumental. Joe didn’t make an appearance in her room so she worked through her inbox before tucking her laptop beneath her arm and rushing off to watch Errol’s music students rehearse for the Christmas show in one of the smaller practice rooms.
The second and third scenes in act one included one song each, rehearsed together because they were both sung by female lead Samantha, who played Kerry Christmas, with Band One backing her. ‘That Baddy is My Uncle!’ covered Kerry learning her beloved uncle had a Godfather-like role in local organised crime. In ‘Dilemma/Don’t Put it All on Me’ she agonised over the consequences of doing the ‘right’ thing. About disillusionment and the death of childhood dreams, it was a haunting song and Kerry would wring the hearts of the audience.
When she joined the rehearsal, the band and Kerry Christmas were in full swing. Georgine’s heart flipped the way it did whenever she saw the kids perform. Laptop deposited on a chair, she tiptoed to the back of the room to watch and listen.
The band was made up of two guitars, bass, piano, drums and saxophone. The student on saxophone was Isla, whose mum, Sian, had been at school with Georgine. Sian was already down as a volunteer to sell programmes or tear tickets on performance nights, along with several other parents.
Sections of Isla’s black hair were gathered into knobs, one either side of her head, the rest falling down around her shoulders. Her eyeliner was so lavish that her eyes almost disappeared when she grinned at Georgine. The rhythm guitarist/vocalist was also female, her hands looking far too small to span the strings. The rest of the band was male, all with hair in fairly uniform trendy cuts on heads that nodded to the beat – apart from Tomasz, on lead guitar, whose hair was scraped back in a man bun.
‘Dilemma’ drew to its end on a long, perfect C, and Georgine bounced to her feet to clap enthusiastically. The band members and Samantha smiled in acknowledgement then looked expectantly at Errol. He stood at the side of the rehearsal room, one elbow propped on his other arm so he could finger his chin, on which had lately sprouted a thin black beard. He gazed thoughtfully at the leading lady. ‘OK, Sam. Has Hannalee talked to you about posture at all?’
Samantha, face falling, coloured violently. She was a pretty but fey girl, given to hiding behind her hair. Until she sang. Then she shook back her dark auburn locks and straightened her spine, joy and talent shining out of her. In Georgine’s view she was a star student. To question a singer of her calibre about something so fundamental as posture was a typical undermining tactic on Errol’s part. Samantha came under the singing tutelage of Hannalee rather than being directly his student and, evidently, he didn’t want her to twinkle too brightly.
Restraining herself from asking when demoralising outstanding students had ever been an effective teaching technique, Georgine cut in: ‘That number’s really coming on! Samantha, you’ll have half the audience in tears. Band One: playing really tightly – well done.’ Her voice full of warmth and enthusiasm, she flicked a look Errol’s way.
Errol gave a wintry smile. ‘Oh, yes, it was very good.’ He made it sound as if he’d had a but to add, then thought better of it.
‘It was awesome,’ Tomasz muttered, slapping Samantha on her shoulder and sending Errol a black look.
Abandoning her laptop, Georgine tried to move swiftly on from Errol’s lukewarm reaction, striding further into the room to beam round. ‘You’re doing so well! I’m working on the transitions between scenes and we’re well on schedule to include them in rehearsals.’
Errol broke in. ‘Just to let you know, we’ve only got Sam for another couple of minutes. Hannalee’s expecting her back.’
‘Thanks,’ said Georgine without looking his way. Errol was full of stupid power plays like interrupting because she’d made a small announcement with no accounting for the accepted hierarchy of first apprising him. Whoever had coined the term ‘passive-aggressive’ must have been thinking of Errol.
‘Georgine could sing with us if Sam’s got to go,’ Tomasz broke in, resting his arms on the top of the guitar around his neck.
‘Thanks Tomasz, but not this time.’ Georgine scotched the idea before Errol had a chance to object. He wasn’t a fan of Georgine joining in with the students.
Errol sent her a flinty, unsmiling look as he resumed control. He was one of the members of the teaching staff who saw interaction with support staff as an opportunity to establish who was more important. ‘Thank you, Band One,’ he called. ‘Samantha, thank you. You’d better go and rejoin your own group. Band Two, you’re up.’ Three girls and four lads, all significantly grungier than the members of Band One, rose with alacrity, grabbing instruments and heading for the performance space. Trent, the singing student who played the male lead, Uncle Jones, ran in, throwing his bag under a chair and taking position at a mic for a song from act two, scene four: ‘Uninvited guests’.
Down the line, Maddie’s Troupe One would be performing a street dance front and centre, which Troupe Two would join in the guise of police officers and gangsters. It was the one scene costume decisions had already been made on because both dancers and band would dress in combinations of black and white to allow for the gradual infiltration of police uniforms and detectives in suits into the party.
Georgine planned to get hold of plenty of sports whitener for shoes. Many of the dance students wore Converse or Vans for street dance, taking pride in their grubbiness.
She backed up to lean on a wall while Band Two finished setting up. A murmured conversation took her attention and she glanced around to see Joe Blackthorn crouching beside the chair of the bass player from Band One. A little shock darted through her. It shouldn’t have, because she’d sent him a copy of the rehearsal schedules spreadsheet marked with those she intended to attend and the comment that he might like to sit in on a few as time and his DBS status allowed.
The bass player – Nolan, she thought he was called – was poring over whatever Joe was showing him on his phone.
She hovered casually closer.
‘Don’t just keep your metronome for when your music teacher’s listening,’ Joe was suggesting. ‘Download a free metronome app for your phone. The bassist and the drummer are the backbone of the band. Practise with a click track at home and it’ll pay off in spades. Tell your drummer, too.’
Georgine was fascinated. She’d heard it said that ‘techs’ had to be as competent as the players they supported but Joe hadn’t until now displayed his experience. Professional skill was gold dust to students.
Her attention was drawn to Band Two, who made a couple of false starts because lead guitarist Sammy was clearly flustered, probably by the presence of Georgine and Joe. Band One didn’t help the situation by catcalling gleefully.
Errol, to give him his due, made time for his own students. ‘Freestyle for a bit, Sammy,’ he suggested. Sammy nodded and, head down over his instrument in embarrassment, began to improvise. The drummer and bassist soon picked up his tempo and the rhythm guitarist positioned himself where he could see Sammy’s fingers and select the right chords to back him.
After a couple of minutes Errol said casually, ‘OK, let’s go again.’ Sammy proved to have settled. The band kept it tight for the whole number. Errol gave them a wide smile and raised his hands above his head to applaud. ‘Great stuff!’
‘Really great! Thanks,’ Georgine called, moving back towards the door and swooping up her laptop en route. Out in the corridor she made a note to make sure that Sammy was kept calm and comfortable, especially for live shows. Hopefully Errol would be on top of it. But, if not, Georgine would be.
The rest of the morning went by on wings. First she telephoned Ian, box office manager at the Raised Curtain. He gave her the news that they’d already sold more than a hundred seats over the six performances. She pulled a face because they had over a thousand to sell, but said, ‘That’s a great start!’ Declaring it a so-so start wasn’t going to do anything for her business relationship with the box office.
‘And I was about to ring you,’ Ian continued, with the air of pulling a rabbit from a hat, ‘because I’ve just heard from Girlguiding Cambridgeshire West. They want to select the Saturday matinee for their Christmas outing and I’ve been asked to hold a provisional hundred and thirty seats.’
This time Georgine didn’t have to struggle to sound happy. ‘Wow! That’s brilliant!’
They spent a few minutes discussing the discount, Georgine refusing to be drawn into being overgenerous. The more each show made, the more Acting Instrumental could pour into other productions or resources. They were a comparatively rich college, thanks to Oggie being a whizz at securing funding from all the relevant bodies, but couldn’t run at a loss.
Girl Guides dealt with, she turned to a fresh subject. ‘By the way, a new member of staff, Joe’ – she had to grope for Joe’s surname – ‘Blackthorn will be handling the tech crew so he’ll probably want to check out your space. Will that be OK? Great, thanks very much.’ She ended the call, glad Joe hadn’t been here to witness her almost forgetting his name, but just for an instant something had got in the way of her memory function. Joe just didn’t seem like a Blackthorn somehow.
At lunchtime, she went to the cafeteria, selected lamb ragu with rice, then looked around for somewhere to sit. At a table in the corner she spotted Joe with some of this morning’s music students and dance tutor Avril and headed their way. ‘Hi, everyone,’ she said as she deposited her plate and drink on the table.
Avril beamed, ‘Hiya!’ Her blonde hair was coiled at the back, the fringe left to frame her face.
Joe said, ‘Hi.’ His plate was empty and he was lounging back in his chair, coffee mug cradled in his hands.
With only a minuscule pause to acknowledge her arrival, the students continued with their own conversation. Georgine savoured her first mouthful of lamb with an appreciative murmur. Acting Instrumental was the only education establishment she’d worked in with catering of this standard.
Avril finished her meal and put aside her knife and fork. ‘How’s your stressometer?’ she demanded of Georgine. ‘Climbing nicely as you pull everything together for the show?’
‘I thrive on it.’ Georgine grinned. ‘The buzz and thrill of seeing progress at rehearsals.’
Lowering her voice, Avril enquired, ‘Nothing new on the Aidan front? No resolution?’
Conscious that the students could be listening, Georgine was circumspect. ‘One to put down to experience.’
‘Awwwww.’ Avril pulled a sympathetic face. ‘So you’ll be living alone at Christmas?’
Georgine laughed. ‘Except my sister’s moved in for a bit.’ And had come through with the first month’s rent, which had allowed Georgine to pay extra to the water authority’s outstanding bill.
Joe joined the conversation. ‘Is your sister moving in a good thing?’ A smile lurked in his eyes.
She made a face. ‘Time will tell. I love her to bits but we’re very different. Do you have siblings?’ She took another mouthful.
The smile in Joe’s eyes changed to something more wistful. ‘I had a stepsister or, at least, my mother and her father lived together for a while. I lost track of her.’
‘That’s a shame, you must have been close if you were brought up in the same house.’ Then, seeing Joe’s gaze drop as if he were becoming uncomfortable with the subject, she tried to change it to Ian at the Raised Curtain.
‘What’s your sister’s name?’ Avril asked Joe at the same time as Georgine opened her mouth.
Joe glanced at her. ‘Chrissy.’
Avril, who could out-talk an auctioneer, opened her mouth with, no doubt, yet another question, but a student paused at the table. ‘Oggie’s looking for you, Rich.’
Joe looked up at the student and opened his mouth as if to reply. Then a student called Richard jumped up from his place further along the table. ‘I asked him to sign my passport form. Thanks. I’ll go to his room.’
Joe closed his mouth again, his gaze flicking towards Georgine.
Avril asked Joe something else.
Georgine couldn’t make herself listen. Her senses were locked on the man across the table, the room around them receding to hiss and blur, almost obscured by the sudden acceleration of her heartbeat. Now she knew why the name Blackthorn hadn’t seemed quite right, and, probably, why ‘Joe’ seemed to watch Georgine a lot.
Maybe because she’d just heard his sister Chrissy’s name again, and when he’d almost answered to the name of Rich a moment ago it had spun the tumblers of her memory. His face and voice clicked into place, like one of those optical illusions where you thought you were looking at one thing but suddenly realised there was another picture there all along.
Rich Garrit.
Joe Blackthorn was Rich Garrit. How the hell had she missed it till now? It was so obvious! The face shape had matured, he was tall instead of small and spindly, the hair was completely different, but the eyes were the same, and the shape of his mouth.
Rich Garrit had been the most underprivileged kid in their school with horribly outdated or unsuitable clothes in a mishmash of sizes. The wrong shoes. A PE bag that was a supermarket carrier bag with his name written on it in marker pen. The kind of parents that no kid would choose.
Dumb with shock, vaguely she registered Avril checking her watch and making ‘back to work’ noises, the students moving off in a body to whatever awaited them next.
And Joe gazing ruefully back at her.
Through the soulful brown eyes of Rich Garrit.
Chapter Eight
If he hadn’t been cursing himself so bitterly, Joe could almost have laughed at Georgine’s flabbergasted expression. Lips parted, sea-green eyes wide, sandy eyebrows almost vanishing into her hair.
But, shit. Even if he’d known the chances were high that this day would dawn, he’d hoped to find his feet in his new life before being obliged to embark on the emotional journey back to the infinitely crappier one.
He cleared his throat. ‘Why don’t I get us both a coffee—’
‘Have you got an extended lunch hour or something? My watch tells me it’s time to get back to work,’ Avril put in, giving him a tiny prod in his shoulder as she got to her feet. ‘Crack the whip over your new assistant, Georgine!’ She giggled.
Wrenching her gaze from Joe, Georgine stumbled to her feet, backing away. ‘I have to get back to work too.’ Dispensing with farewells, she rushed to join the line straggling out through the cafeteria doors.
With a rapid, ‘Bye!’ tossed back to Avril, Joe hopped up and charged after her. Georgine’s amber hair made it a cinch for a tall person to keep her in view as the flow of students carried her along until she forked off right towards her room. He watched to check she went inside, then headed left for Oggie’s quarters.
Finding the principal of the institution at his desk he whipped over to the coffee machine and helped himself to two cups of coffee with a breathless, ‘Sorry, Oggie. Explain later.’
Oggie, who rarely looked anything other than serene, actually frowned. ‘Joe, you’re supposed to be—’ was all he got out as Joe, heart beating surprisingly hard and high up in his chest, set off in pursuit of Georgine.
At her door, he paused, then stepped inside. ‘I brought you coffee.’
From the other side of the large table, she gazed at him, her expression frozen into unfriendly lines. ‘You’re supposed to be—’
‘Accompanied, yeah. So sue me.’ He closed her door with an impatient foot. ‘You’ve obviously realised who I am. I’d like to explain.’ He put one of the coffee cups down on the table and pushed it across to her. It felt like he was creeping up on a wild creature and trying to gain its trust with food.
Georgine’s eyes moved over his face. ‘This is beyond weird. Like a time warp crossed with the hall of mirrors.’
He offered a smile. ‘I had a few reasons for not reminding you who I was straight away.’
‘You had planned to come clean at some time, then?’ She glanced at the cup of coffee but didn’t touch it.
Her words rankled but he didn’t let his irritation filter into his voice as he pointed out, ‘I haven’t done anything wrong to “come clean” about. I recognised you. I can’t help it if you didn’t recognise me.’
The green eyes were wary. ‘You’ve changed so much. I kept getting a strange feeling about you, but not knowing why. The penny dropped when you almost answered that kid when he said “Rich”.’
‘I was a ragged arse runt when you knew me. Becoming healthy after being underfed for most of your life is bound to prompt changes,’ he said with a hint of bitterness.
‘Your hair’s a lot darker now. You wear glasses. And, crucially, unlike me, you’ve changed your name.’ She took a few steps around the table, then paused as if not wanting to venture too close.
He remained where he was, willing to stay out of her personal space but not by backing up. ‘Why don’t we sit down and I’ll tell you the story over coffee?’
‘Because I have to start ringing around the parents who are volunteering to act as house managers or to run the bar and refreshments counter during show week. Six shows means a lot of volunteers.’
‘Right.’ For an instant he’d forgotten he was in a ‘normal’ job. Maybe because he hadn’t had too much experience of normal. He spent a lot of his life on the road or rehearsing or recording. He didn’t think he’d ever had a reason to be in the same building five days a week since he’d left college.
‘I feel odd,’ she said, before he could speak again. ‘I’m supposed to be looking after you, but I actually don’t want to, not this afternoon. I want to concentrate on what I’m doing, not trying to solve the puzzle that’s you.’
‘I’m not a—’ he began.
She held up her hands. Impatience seemed to be taking the place of shock. ‘No, don’t. I’ve got most of the notes together for you so I’ll walk you to the staff room. If you have your copy of the Very Kerry Christmas script you can begin adding your tech notes.’
‘OK,’ he said. ‘But it’s important we clear the air.’
She nodded, though her heavy sigh suggested she regretted the necessity. ‘Could it be away from here? Maybe tonight, if you’re free. If we’re to work together a talk would be … enlightening.’
‘I can be free this evening.’ Until he made a decision or two, every evening on his calendar was free, with a question mark over Christmas week. His uncle and aunt, Shaun and Louise, usually invited him, but this year Shaun was working with a band in Australia and Louise had gone along for the whole Christmas-on-the-beach experience. ‘Here in the village? Is there a coffee shop?’
‘The Angel, but it’s only open in the evenings in summer or when there’s something on in the village. It’ll have to be the pub. Give me your phone number and I’ll text you details.’
He shifted awkwardly. ‘I don’t have a phone I can use right now. Just tell me where and when and I’ll be there.’ His phone was off and as he’d no intention of switching it on any time soon it wasn’t a lie to say he couldn’t use it.
She frowned, as if the fact that he didn’t have a working mobile phone made her even more wary. As if to show him what he was missing, her phone began to burble. Reaching for a notepad, she tore out a page and scribbled The Three Fishes, Main Street, 8 p.m. on it, shoving it towards him as she answered the call.
‘I’ll be there,’ he murmured.
‘OK.’ Then, into her phone, ‘Hello, Maddie. Yes … no, I wasn’t going to, but I can come along if you want me to.’ She reached for her production file and laptop, pausing to grab the cup of coffee he’d brought her then waiting for him at the door. He followed as she walked briskly up the corridor to the staff room and saw him inside with a nod and what passed for a smile.
The door swung closed.
He’d been dismissed.
Irritated, Joe opened his locker to get the laptop Fern had issued to him, a battered old hand-me-down ‘from the pool’, though he would have thought ‘the shit heap’ a more accurate description. It was a far cry from his own state-of-the-art Mac Pro, but he supposed Acting Instrumental had a policy on what computers they made available to which staff and he was a very new, lowly volunteer who could be temporary. A shit-heap computer was evidently his level.
Also, he wasn’t turning on his own laptop, to avoid the siren call of his inbox at present. Raf, Nathan and Liam from the band were probably trying to contact him, not to mention Billy, but, though he felt slightly ashamed for ducking them, he hadn’t formulated answers to what he knew would be their very real concerns.
He cast a jaundiced eye over the overheated staff room. It boasted the kind of low chairs that seemed designed to make a tall person uncomfortable. A peek out of the door revealed not a single student, so for the second time since lunch, he broke the unbreakable rule that he shouldn’t be alone until his DBS checked out, and left. Soon he was unlocking a door that led him out of the building directly beneath the outside stairs that clung to the side of the building. From either side, the door looked to be the kind that led to a cupboard or some utility and had presumably been used to access staff accommodation in the days when the building had been a private residence. The flight of stairs was obscured by the bulk of the big rehearsal room and it had only been by chance that Georgine had caught him there on his first day. Wrong-footed at her presence, he’d hovered indecisively as she’d turned and spotted him. Letting her think he had no business being where he was had seemed the easiest way out.
But now he ran up the steps, tapped a number into the keypad and let himself into a corridor with three doors, two on the left and one on the right. He opened and went through the one on the right, kicking off his shoes and hanging up his jacket.
The apartment, apart from being as big as the other two put together, had appealed to him because it was so white and clean looking. Its impressive kitchen area held a battery of built-in equipment, making him appreciate why whoever had planned the apartment had gone with open plan. That kitchen was a work of art and shouldn’t be hidden behind a door.
He crossed to the fridge and helped himself to a bottle of water, then moved into the living area and dropped onto the sofa, taking off his glasses and swinging his feet up onto the coffee table. Opening the shit-heap laptop, he emailed Oggie to let him know Georgine had recognised him, then fetched the photocopies of her storyboards from where he’d left them on the table by the window last night. Her notes had already dropped into his inbox so he searched out a notebook and a pen – he thought better with a pen in his hand. Then he settled down to work.
Interrupting himself, once in a while he tried a couple of lines of lyrics, as the songwriting habit, imbued in him at college, had never left. Something about an old crush being the reason he’d been wary of seriously long-term relationships …? Sounded ridiculous. An immature get-pregnant-to-get-him-to-marry-me scheme a few years ago had been responsible for any wariness he had in that direction, and the woman who’d followed had been so incredibly indiscreet on social media about the details of their relationship that he hadn’t even felt obliged to end things face-to-face. She’d got her revenge by revealing the details of that phone conversation in a Twitter storm that had made him feel sick.
He got up once to make coffee, standing at the kitchen window and staring out at the new block, which replaced what had once been a wonderful view over gardens and paddocks. He felt charged, restless, but made himself return to the work. He kind of wanted to show Georgine what he could do.
His long ago alter ego Rich Garrit continued to invade his thoughts. At nearly fourteen, he would have almost wet himself with excitement to know he was going to meet Georgine France in a pub tonight. She was the prettiest and most popular girl in their school year, and to him an unlikely but highly prized friend. She’d lived in a big house in Middledip village and her parents had a car each: a Jaguar XKR and limo-like black Mercedes.
Young Rich Garrit would have pretended to himself that they were actually going on a date. He’d never asked to start seeing her of course, knowing he’d be destroyed if she’d said no, and, in all probability, so would their friendship. And enough money for an actual date? In his dreams.
Present-day Joe Blackthorn had to explain what Georgine obviously considered strange, if not downright suspicious, behaviour. He closed his eyes and tipped his head back to come to terms with that uncomfortable thought.
Rich Garrit had been an odd kid.
But Georgine probably thought Joe Blackthorn odder still. Fucksake. Why wasn’t his life ever simple?
Chapter Nine
After work, Georgine drove to Bettsbrough. Gold Street, on the left just before the town proper, led her to the sheltered housing where her father lived without her being sucked into the one-way system.
She used her key to let herself in through the main door. There was no sense in using the entry system, which would oblige her dad to ease himself out of his high-seat chair and shuffle across to press the ‘open door’ button. She would have tried to get him some kind of mobile phone-based system so he could remain in his chair while he talked to callers at the door, but his speech was now so unclear that he wasn’t keen. At least that saved her from having to find the money.
Money. Who said it was the root of all evil? To her it was the root of all sodding hassle and disappointment.
No trace of that kind of frustration showed in her face though as she let herself into the flat, past the bathroom and into the sitting room. ‘It’s me, Dad.’
Randall twisted in his chair. ‘Hi, honey!’ It came out more as: ‘Ha unny’ but he’d said ‘Hi, honey’ every time he saw her for as long as she could remember so the imperfect diction didn’t matter.
Cheered just to be with her dad, who seldom complained, no matter what life threw at him, Georgine stooped to hug him as he groped for the TV remote with his good hand to switch off the late-afternoon news. He was bulkier than he used to be and she couldn’t make her arms meet around him. ‘I called in at the supermarket and got the stuff for a full English as promised. Hungry?’
‘Oh, yes. Favourite.’ Randall gurgled a laugh. As his speech had deteriorated he’d compensated by developing a kind of verbal shorthand and making greater use of laughs, groans, nods and headshakes.
Georgine chatted for a few minutes, satisfying herself there was no fresh reason to worry about him, then moved into the kitchenette, switching on the grill to warm up as she unpacked sausages, bacon, eggs and mushrooms. ‘How’d you like your eggs today, Dad?’
‘’Amble, p’ease.’
‘Scrambled it is.’ She pricked the sausages and put them under the grill, letting them get a head start while she cut the rind off the bacon, wiped the mushrooms and mixed the eggs. As she worked, she updated Randall on the Blair-moving-in situation. She knew Blair had visited Randall and told him in person about Warren ending things.
‘Poor Bear.’ Randall couldn’t get his mouth to form the L in Blair very well. He asked a question, which, on the second attempt, Georgine got as, ‘Is she very upset?’
She paused to consider, cooking tongs dangling from her fingers. ‘Putting a brave face on, but I think it’s rocked her. She wasn’t expecting it and she still loves him.’
‘Gi’ her a ’ug.’
Georgine grinned. ‘I will. I’ll tell her it’s from you.’ She turned the sausages and took a tin of tomatoes from the cupboard. ‘By the way, a new guy at Acting Instrumental turns out to be someone I went to school with, Rich Garrit. I didn’t immediately recognise him. He’s changed his name to Joe Blackthorn for some reason.’ It made her stomach drop to remember the shock of the realisation.
Randall made a puffing noise, trying to get a word out. Georgine gave him time as she opened the tomato tin. Finally, he managed, ‘Criminal?’
‘Blimey. Hope not.’ At school, she reminded herself with an unpleasant thrill, he had hung with all the rough guys and it had been really weird the way he’d turned on her one day and then disappeared. Nobody had known where. Georgine had even put aside her hurt and anger to ask his sister, Chrissy, but Chrissy had just shrugged and turned away. Then, in a matter of weeks, Chrissy had gone too. Unnerving rumours of Garrit doing away with both children had swirled around the school until the teachers had heard and said that Rich and Chrissy had each transferred to schools out of the area.
Starved of oxygen, the flames of rumour went out, but Georgine had struggled to cope with the loss of a friend. It had been like a bereavement. For the first time in her life she’d become moody and difficult, which had led, eventually, to that truculent moment of stupidity that had changed everything for everybody she loved.
Her family became a distorted thing. Dad lost everything. Mum left. Blair developed an awkward relationship with money. It had all stemmed from Georgine and those moods, and it seemed as if she’d spent her life since then battling the fallout. It was probably why now she liked everything to be neat and controlled.
‘Careful with him.’ Randall groped for his hankie to wipe his mouth before he finished. ‘Ve’y careful, p’ease.’
Georgine’s heart warmed at the love in her father’s gaze. ‘I’m meeting him at The Three Fishes at eight. It’s nice and public.’
‘’Kay.’ Randall nodded. ‘Tex me later?’
‘I will. Now, I’m just putting the bacon under. I’ll give you three rashers.’ She moved on to tell him how the Christmas show was going. He loved to hear about her job and she loved to talk about it, so the subject lasted them through dinner and the washing up. Then Georgine checked Randall’s bank account for him, exhibiting her phone screen so he could nod in satisfaction that his benefit was coming in OK and his rent going out.
Then she said goodnight and drove home, grateful that her car, small and middle-aged as it was, remained reliable in the face of increasingly cold weather.
Despite her assurances to her dad, when the time came to meet Joe, she wasn’t sure she should have agreed to it. Blair was out or Georgine might have asked her to come along. And why had she suggested the pub? She didn’t have money to spare on non-essentials. She resolved that if Joe bought her a drink and she bought him one back, that would provide ample time to hear what he had to say. She could squeeze that much out of her budget now she had Blair’s contribution to the household.
The hood of her coat protected her hair from the worst of the swirling wind as she strode along the footpath that brought her out of the Bankside estate where Great Hill Road joined Main Road. A few strides from the village pub, her footsteps slowed. Last time she’d spoken to Rich Garrit she’d been struggling to hold back hurt tears and he and his scruffy mates had been hooting with laughter at her. OK, they’d been fourteen, but it had felt like a betrayal because Georgine had stuck up for Rich when others had poked fun at him and said unkind things. They hadn’t been ‘seeing each other’, but they’d done art, drama and music together and their friendship had seemed enough for them both. Once away from his braying mates he’d dropped his naughty-boy persona and shown his intelligence, discussing unexpected subjects like karma and whether good people really did return to more enjoyable lives, as a TV programme about Buddhism had said.
Though the intervening years had been enough for her to shuck off a schoolyard gripe, Rich Garrit had once proved himself to be unreliable.
His reappearance with a completely different name didn’t encourage her to trust him now.
She crossed the road towards The Three Fishes. Built of the local russet-coloured stone and presently festooned with a blinding cat’s cradle of Christmas lights, it was at the heart of Middledip both literally and figuratively. M.A.R. Motors, Booze & News and the Angel Community Café were all a short walk away down Main Road. Nearby stood the playing fields and the village hall. The latter was currently closed and rather than its own Christmas decorations sparkling from its windows, a car park full of building machinery and skips indicated that work had begun on replacing the roof.
The wind more or less blew Georgine in through the door of The Three Fishes, bringing her to the attention of the landlord behind the polished wooden bar. Known in Middledip as ‘Tubb from the pub’, opinion was divided as to whether or not his sometimes-uncertain temper hid a heart of gold, but you certainly didn’t get through the door to his pub – in either direction – without him noticing. ‘Evening,’ he said, his eyes flitting over his bar as if wondering what Georgine would buy.
When the France family had lived in The Gatehouse, a three-storey stone property near The Cross, they hadn’t frequented The Three Fishes much. Randall had been a member of Bettsbrough Golf Club and their mum, Barbara, of Port Manor Hotel’s country club, and one of those polished establishments had usually won the France family’s custom. Tubb never seemed to hold that against Georgine.
She was the only member of her family remaining in the village – not counting Blair, who was really just using Middledip as a safe harbour while she recovered from her most recent emotional storm. Randall’s assisted living flat was in Bettsbrough and Barbara flitted between a big house on a beach in Northumberland and a big house in the hills of central France.
Not put off by Tubb’s boot-face, Georgine shoved back her hood and offered him a friendly grin. ‘Phew, blowing a hooley out there.’ Unwinding her long aubergine scarf she swapped greetings with a few villagers she knew then, unzipping her coat, glanced about the busy bar for Joe.
Rich.
Whoever the hell he was.
Then she glimpsed him. He’d bagged a table by the fire and was lounging in a chair and watching the goings on of the pub through his specs with a half smile. His dark grey jeans and leather cowboy boots looked expensive, as did the thick black jacket lying over a nearby chair.
She weaved her way towards him, the boots making her think roadies must be ‘music biz’ enough to dress a bit alternatively. When he noticed her, he rose, giving her the smile that now she recognised perfectly clearly from the days it had flashed from the face of the boy who’d been the class joker. ‘Well, howdy, Mizz Jaw-Jean.’
The delivery of the well-worn joke was deadpan, but his eyes laughed. Despite having spent the afternoon brooding on why he hadn’t mentioned their old connection as soon as he recognised her, Georgine felt the corners of her mouth twitch. It was reassuring to be reminded of his clowning, the days when Rich would try to make her giggle in class. Once he’d pretended to take out his eyeballs to polish them. Next time he’d opened his eyelids he’d been cross-eyed, as if he’d replaced them in the wrong sockets. She’d had to look away to prevent herself from laughing out loud. Pretending had been OK then.
But now?
‘Hello …’ She hesitated.
‘Joe,’ he finished for her. ‘What can I get you?’
‘A glass of chardonnay, please.’
While he went to the bar she took a seat, noticing a couple of the younger Acting Instrumental students in a coterie of teenagers in the corner. All had soft drinks on their table. Tubb knew better than to serve the underage youth with alcohol. Apart from the threat to his licence, their parents, aunts and uncles could well be knocking back a merlot somewhere in the pub.
On the bar, tiny white lights sparkled on a small Christmas tree – Tubb wouldn’t waste space he could fill with customers by putting up a larger, floor-standing tree – and a colourful range of notices about Christmas raffles and hampers was tacked to the wooden posts around the bar.
Georgine combed her hair with her fingers before flicking it back over her shoulders.
When she looked up, Joe was watching her. Then Janice the barmaid arrived to serve him. ‘Yes, duck, what can I get you?’ she said, and he turned to give his order.
When he rejoined Georgine, he placed the drinks on the table as he took his seat. She became uncomfortably aware of her heartbeat. The time had come to hear what he had to say, and there was a part of her that didn’t want to. It was unsettling that he’d had the opportunity to observe her and absorb the memories of twenty years ago, while she hadn’t recognised him at all.
She took a sip of wine, unwilling to be the one to start the conversation.
Joe’s own drink was fruit juice and he took a long draught of it, then rubbed his palms down his jeans. ‘I’ve been obsessing over where to start. Or even how much you want to know. I’m sorry I wasn’t transparent with you.’
Georgine nodded.
He glanced around. ‘I’m not sure this is the right venue for this conversation. I suppose I thought a village pub on a weeknight would have a quiet corner.’
She said nothing. The only quieter venue within easy reach was her home, and she was not going to invite him there. Blair might be in by now, and anyway, home was her safe place.
Joe cleared his throat as her silence continued. ‘OK. I’ll approach this as chronologically as I can. There are still things I don’t know and probably never will.’ He took another gulp from his drink. ‘I was born John Joseph Blackthorn.’
Georgine felt her eyebrows flip up. She’d presumed the name she’d known him under to be his birth name and that Joe Blackthorn was an identity he’d assumed, the reasons behind which had been at the heart of her unease today.
He gave a small, wry smile. ‘Yes, it’s my real name. My mother called me Johnjoe and sometimes it got shortened to Joe. I don’t remember my father, Tim Blackthorn. He died when I was two. They’d taken me to a beach on the east coast and he’d had a few beers. He went for a swim, got caught in a current and drowned.’
Georgine felt a shiver run through her, not just of compassion for such a tiny tot losing his dad but because he’d never told her such significant things about his life. ‘I’m sorry. I didn’t know.’
He gave a low laugh. ‘I didn’t know about my dad myself for ages. For the few years before he died, he didn’t speak to his upper middle-class parents. They’d made their feelings known when Dad, a student at Cambridge, took up with Mum, an under-educated local girl with the wrong accent, who, in their opinion, encouraged him to drink too much and work too little.’
‘Were they harsh?’ Despite her earlier reservations, Georgine was beginning to get caught up in the story.
Joe sipped his fruit juice and shrugged. ‘I think my parents were as bad as each other. They moved in together and Dad flunked out of uni in his second year. I came along – by accident, I expect – and he never told my grandparents about me. Not long before he died, he did ring his brother, Shaun, and ask if they could meet. Said he had someone to introduce to him. At the time Shaun thought he’d maybe got a new girlfriend and was hoping Shaun’s approval might pave the way to him talking to their parents again. Now, of course, he thinks the “someone” was me. But Dad died before he could set up the meeting.’
Georgine found it hard to even imagine the situation. She’d had such a golden childhood, brought up by loving parents whose marriage gave at least the illusion of security. ‘But when your dad died, didn’t your mum contact his family? Tell them about you?’
His eyes grew shadowed. ‘She took it into her head that if they knew about me they’d try and get me off her. Do you remember Garrit?’
Georgine nodded. She had known the man Rich had lived with was not his natural father. He’d always referred to him as Garrit, like everyone else, as if Garrit hadn’t been worthy of a first name, let alone a title like ‘dad’.
‘Mum hooked up with him. He was a shit but a kindred spirit so far as booze was concerned.’ Joe paused to give a little shake of his head as if finding the workings of his mother’s mind hard to comprehend. ‘When I began infant school she registered me as John Joseph Garrit. She told the school she didn’t want my real father knowing where I was, but she meant Dad’s family, if they ever discovered I existed.’
‘Do you think the Blackthorns would have wanted to take you off her if they had?’ Georgine took a gulp of her wine to free the lump that had risen to her throat at the way the child Joe had been helpless to influence his own fate.
‘They would have been heartless bastards if they didn’t, considering the life I was living.’ Joe smiled bitterly. ‘The years went on. Mum and Garrit sank lower, neither of them holding down a job, Garrit doing bits and pieces on the side and claiming every benefit he could think of. Once I reached my teens he used me as a runner for whatever he was mixed up in – obviously dodgy. He used to send me off with packages or envelopes with promises of dire retribution if I peeked at the contents or didn’t bring the payment straight back to him. We ended up in the worst house on the worst council estate in Bettsbrough, filthy curtains at the windows and a garden that was a rubbish heap. I used to have actual nightmares that you’d somehow find out where I lived and turn up.’
Georgine took another glug of wine. Of all the horrible aspects of the life Joe had lived as Rich Garrit, that was what had given him bad dreams?
He carried on, the evenness of his voice making the bite of his words all the deeper. ‘I hated Garrit. He knocked us all around and was verbally abusive. When I was about nine I found my birth certificate in a case on top of a wardrobe. It took me a few minutes to realise from the date of birth that John Joseph Blackthorn was me and that I’d once had a dad called Tim. I asked my mum about him. She was economical with the truth and said he hadn’t stuck around. I used to fantasise he’d come back for me, that he’d be a good man I could live with. In my head, I tried my real name on for size. “I am John Joseph Blackthorn”. I used to write it on bits of paper and then rip them up so nobody found them.’
Tears pricking in the backs of her eyes, Georgine murmured, ‘I had no idea.’
His smile was bleak. ‘I probably should have been an actor, I covered up so well.’ He glanced up as if checking no one was listening in. ‘It got worse when I went to senior school. My primary school had been in the crappy area we lived in, but Bettsbrough Comp was fed by several other primaries and I finally saw how shit my life was when I met kids from comfortable homes.’ He took a slow breath. ‘Apart from you, they either laughed at me or ignored me. I think that’s why the kids from the Shetland estate formed their rat pack. Stuck with their own. We called the Shetland estate “Shitland”, do you remember? I was unwillingly absorbed by the definitely dodgy Shitland gang. They all had nicknames and with stupid teenage humour they called me “Rich” because I wasn’t.’
Georgine swore under her breath. His smile flashed at hearing her curse but she couldn’t smile back. ‘You made people laugh. You were perpetually clowning around.’
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