I was not born a medium. I don’t have stories of my childhood how I first saw a ghost when I was five and started to realize that I’m a special one since then. I’ve been always told that I am special. I really wanted to be normal, ordinary girl but people around kept always telling me I was different – while I desperately argued I’m not. Honestly, I still think I’m an ordinary person. I thought everybody can do that – see aura, heal people by laying hands. Yes, a lot of children can do that. But when you grow up, everything is changing and by putting this sacral scary knowledge into the box of reality, a lot of people prefer to live a simple life and even the child forgets his own divine nature.

The Other side have opened to me with my practice. I’ve come a hard and long way where I balanced between office career of head of legal in international law firms and inhouse companies and my own way of witch who whispers with Spiritual Guides. Meanwhile I have never lost my mind in eastern practices by hugging some crazy “gurus” who never washed their heads. I never wanted immediately and desperately develop my skills right away, – intuitively I felt that too much practice in short period is quite dangerous and will destroy my inner barriers and landmarks and my mind will never be clear again.

Reasonable skepticism in esoteric is must. There are a lot of people ruined their lives by wrong spiritual practice. Some people wear tin foil hats, some people don’t have money even to buy foil but they have monthly subscription in Akashi Chronicles (or they think they do), they know everything about Cosmogalactic messages from the millions of other stars and universes, how exactly people should live according to Ascended masters and so on. Doesn’t matter that information may contradict to common sense and logic – it is the Sacral Knowledge about Everything. Really? That’s why I prefer to follow my Path very carefully, listening to myself and my heart very carefully and always contacting with my Spiritual Guides in every step I take. It’s the matter of trust to higher power, to my Guides – and every day I see that following the spiritual path is the matter of trust. And please, always verify information.

Death have never interested me, I never felt connection with funerals and any rituals whatsoever. The list of friends and relatives who passed away is short – just two or three persons there. Before working with the Other Side, I thought that death is an integral part of being, I did not have any fear, though in our family – like in any family in our culture- nobody talked about death intentionally. I remember from my childhood that deceased grandparent came in the dreams of other family members to say something important and this information is always true, but it is not allowed to follow them no matter where they go. That was all my knowledge.

I did not choose to be the medium and talk to dead. That was decided by my Guides. I myself is quite happy and alive person and even in my teens I didn’t wear gothic style, have not practiced cult of dead with all pentacles, depressive music claiming to “join me in death” (will all respect). But my personality really has nothing to do with my practice and being a joyful person doesn’t mean that contacting with dead people is very joyful. I’ve read some books of psychics describing their practice as funny job, when uncle Rob is flying on the ceiling and auth Nina is telling inappropriate jokes. I have never witnessed hysteric laughter from the dead souls in my practice. I have witnessed bright sorrow, grief, freedom and liberation, but dead souls are in absolutely different space and we can see them when we are in altered state of consciousness. This state changes everything in perception. At least that is what I know at the moment. Jokes – yes, but you don’t want to laugh, it is not stand-up show. Maybe, in couple of years I will experience fun with someone’s uncle Rob and aunt Nina and will teach me how to make fun when you’re dead – who knows.

In this book I would like to give detailed answers to questions about the Other Side, demystify some myths, some of you will be surprised, some will be upset.

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What is Death?

Every culture has its death spirits – or death gods. No matter which culture is closer to you – Indians of North America, Ottoman empire, Ancient Greece, Medieval times with all the discoveries and tortures, Ancient Egypt – every culture, tradition and religion has its own views to death and map of afterworld. By the way, the interest to certain culture (not only funeral aspects) may confirm you’ve been there in your past lives. Anyway, spiritual traditions of every nation have information of what should be done to do to go to another world with no fear and pain.

Usually the Other Side is the variation of the Lower world according to idea of three worlds. There are three worlds in shamanism – Upper world, Middle world and Lower world. The Upper world is the space for gods and spirits of the higher level, Middle world is our world, and the Lower world is the world of dark energies, restless souls, daemons, world of cold, death, bad spirits. It looks like Scandinavian Hell.

The Lower world is the world of cold and freeze or, in some cultures, it’s infernal hell with heat depending on cultural context and what is scaring people of certain region the most. These ideas depend on climatic circumstances. Please note that all magical traditions are connected to the territory, and it is quite hard to celebrate Beltane in Morocco, other gods are conquered that place already, and date just has no power (I’ve been in Morocco on the 1^st of May, no celebration and magic there). If you have initiation, you can practice everywhere (like Haiti voodoo priest can practice in any country), but it doesn’t work itself, you should make some moves. Therefore, the most frightening thing for Scandinavians is to be frozen, and for desert people the heat is the worst.

In Christianity and Islam there are heaven, people’s world and hell, and pagan traditions are pretty much the same about structure of the worlds. As you can see, middle world is always about people, upper is about gods, angels, guardians of the family, saints, when the lower world is undefinable, scary, chthonic and freaky. It’s equal to unconscious in terms of psychoanalysis.

Ordinary people’s view to the death are somewhere between fear of dead man in the cemeteries (thanks to folklore) and exalted idea of afterlife, when relatives come in dreams and give advice or provide other help. In both views there are dead souls, but first is about dark energy, and the second is about bright sorrow. I think that happens because we don’t have acceptance of death in our culture as the part of life and part of the being. Children are guarded from death and are not told about the death of their favorite pet or grandmother preferring to tell white lies. But remember, the sleep of reasons produces monsters.

The younger the civilization, the bigger the cult of consumption, cult of youth and interest to life here and now, live fast, die young. In old African traditions, in voodoo, in Mexican beliefs with Santa Muerte cult we will not find this attitude, the death is a part of natural process there and should be treated with respect and honor. Some traditions personify the death – Hel in Scandinavia, god of destruction Shiva, Santa Muerte (Saint Death). In Russian tradition there is a death with a scythe – no clear explanation, why, maybe, therefore we are afraid of our last journey – because we just don’t know where are we going.

In Hinduism there are three gods responsible for the order in Universe – Brahma, Vishnu and Shiva. This is trimurti – three gods who created the Universe, protect it and destroy it. Brahma is the great creator of everything and further his role in myths is not big, and he is not mentioned much in legends. This is the level where all laws are created (physics, chemistry etc) which exist by their own (and everybody complains about his destiny to God, but why there are no complaints about gravity?). you can find the Creator in all cosmogonic myths whose role was only to create the world and go rest. Interesting that the Creator is always very indifferent to what he made, he (she?) is cool-blooded, curious and calm and certainly not an emotional being. Even in Bible since the beginning of creating “and God saw that it was good” and till the expulsion of Adam and Eve from Paradise the creator is absolutely indifferent to his creatures (the Sun, the Ocean, people) in present and doesn’t care about their future. He is like a big child who is interested in the process of creation and sometimes you may think that the expulsion happened just because Adam ruined his plan and did not follow the rules of game. Any person loving to create will understand my point of view: when you are making something, you are completely in the creative process, in the flow, but as soon as you’ve done, you just don’t care what happens with this piece of art. You can apply this to any creative process (art, songwriting, fashion, jewelry, design, programming) or any work project. It is some kind of high stage of creation guided by inspiration. It’s extremely important to give birth, create, publish, release from you, and the rest is important. The only thing important here is a process of creating.

Gaea, Chaos, the gods of Ancient Greece who created the world, are not the part of further strives. They are not represented in anthropomorphic state – they are pure energy and their nature is different. Gaea is not Athena. Gaea is much bigger, she is powerful and strong, it’s the kind of power with no place to sense, logic, any limitations, this is pure element and force of nature. There are a lot of creator gods in different mythologies – Egyptian Ptah, Zoroastrian Ahura Mazda, Wiracocha of Inks, Brahma. In some traditions the worlds were created by animals, in orders the world is a result of confrontation of energies (probably, it’s esoteric and spiritual interpretation of the Bing bang theory).

After creating the world, it is important to keep the balance. This is what Vishnu is responsible for. Every culture has its gods responsible for love, health, law and other sectors. These gods are worshiped and asked for protection since the Creator will not waste his time for these small things. That’s why we have saints in Christianity and the smaller gods in every tradition. It is much easier to work with concentrated energy. If you need love – focus your energy on the energy of love which located in symbol and visualization of god – and go ask Aphrodite for help. You need protection in your journey – turn to St.Nicholas. At some point you turn to the archetypes, in fact they are gods anyway. If you need bread, you go to the bakery not to the clothing store. When you localize the energy, it’s much easier to concentrate on it.

Where there is creation, there is a destruction energy, too. It’s Shiva and his spouse Kali in her aspect of anger.

It is what every human being has, it’s what inside every process initially – lust for life and lust for death from any seed of sunflower to the greatest Supernova.

We don’t talk about destruction for the sake of destruction – we mean that the destruction is mandatory part of life circle. A time to scatter stones, and a time to gather. A time to start your journey and time to make a stop. A time for beginning and a time for end. When a person lives in harmony with his nature he realizes when it’s time to start and when to finish, say, relationship, a new job, a new life circle. It’s a very spiritual thing. When there is inner understanding, when there is no desynchronization with the world around, when there is a flow (and a lot of psychologists and buddhist masters talk about it) – then everything becomes clear in a very deep level of being. From this point of view someone’s death is not irrational anymore. It all depends on the point of view – mental or inner level, level of Soul.

Death is an integral part of our being. Death is more that passing away of certain person from your life. Death is a part of life as season change, as light and darkness, as hot and cold, yin and yan, law of global world balance. Sometimes it’s very literally, for example, the birth of grandchild happens only after the death of the older member of the family, but in practice there are a lot of deep energies. We all come into this world for a very short period of time, and it is so important to appreciate life, care about each other, show more love and compassion, develop ourselves spiritually and live with a very simple idea that we are all the links of one chain, where all souls woven in the Universe.

How I see the death? It’s just knowledge. Usually people ask, whether the person will die from the illness or will be healed, if the diagnosis is clear, the answer is also clear if the person suffers from lethal disease. Death energy is a death energy, you cannot confuse it with something else. It is a very big sorrow. When you see death on the pictures portrayed as aggressive substance – it is not death itself, it’s the Spirit of disease. Death is a very sad and tragic figure. It’s about irreversibility. It’s about yearning. It’s about grief. It’s just the law of the Universe, when there is a time to leave and death just do what it has to do. That’s the way the world goes round.

~ Case from my practice ~

I have been told about lethal disease of the boy I know, Slava. My friend showed his photo and all became clear immediately. Six months maximum. During next few months friends did the best collecting money for treatment, they made impossible – 8 mln roubles (almost 100 000 dollars) for treatment in Turkey with one of the best doctors in the world, and there were chances as the doctor told, the guy with the same diagnosis cured completely. Everybody supported Slava, including me, we lived with hope, including me. But I knew, what will happen and when. Knowledge vs hope. When I first came to scan him spiritually, from professional point of view it was interesting to talk to the Spirit of disease, how it looks like with the person who is going to die in a short time. As a human I was devastated, of course. The Spirit was very angry, saying: ”Well, well, come one, try to do something, this is fun while I’m waiting”. Completely useless. In a few weeks my friend passed away.

Not all the Spirits of disease lead to the death. But cancer of 4^th stage looks very aggressive. Neither chemotherapy helped, nor special treatments, nor magic – nothing, unfortunately. It’s all about time, if you miss the right moment, nothing helps cause it’s too late.

Why we die? Why this young man with perfect health, perfect family and career just burnt out in a few months? He didn’t have cancer in his genus, what was that – karma? Past lives?

The most frequently asked question is why? Why we die?

Short answer is because it is what intended by Universe and global order. The time is coming – the human is leaving the scene. By the way, this “departure” not always is fast and good – otherwise there wouldn’t be a lot of restless souls in the space around us. Anyway, in most cases death is predestined by many factors – but it’s not applicable to everybody. If you live your life mindfully then there is a hope your life will be long and you will not die accidentally.

What are the factors which could predestine the death?

Causes of death

Karma

First of all, it’s karma. Karma is the cause-and-effect law and has an impact to future lives. Roughly, if you were a good girl in past life, this life is guaranteed to be good, you will have a good family, earn a lot of money and will be happy. If you were a bad boy – you will turn into the dog. Therefore it is reasonable to make good deeds and make your karma better. This is an investment into your future. Accumulation of merits has the meaning in any case, not for future life only. When the crazy driver overtakes in the tunnel and in few minutes crushes into the wall – it is not instant karma as you may think. It’s simple logic. In my previous books I wrote that the Universe globally doesn’t care about you and your thoughts – all it works is just the buttons you press and what you ask for. Universe is created and lives in accordance with its own laws. Unless you stand up and say out loud what you need – nobody really cares about your existence and everything goes its own way as planned. It’s not the Universe who punishes the driver but the wall which is logically and indifferently standing where is should be stood as well as laws of physics about speed, braking distance and of course, the traffic rules. If you eat toadstool – you are going to be poisoned. If you tease an angry dog – you will be bitten. There are obvious things and karma has nothing to do with it. Karma is spread for all life of the person (being more specific, to the soul), and there are no situations when the person was almost saint but somehow was found in the forest with missing body parts. In most cases the death is the result of person’s modus vivendi. You can absolutely control your everyday life, say, if you have problems with your body weight, you can train and have proper nutrition not to make your life worse. Yes, you can bring the death closer. You can take billions of loans in a bank and after delays and no money you can kill someone – that’s an option. Or you can be free from any debts, do some social work or even go to ashram for enlightenment. These are all your choices, your decisions. Every second of your life the inner scales are balancing and one insignificant choice may lead to the famous butterfly effect and change all your life.

The more I practice the more I realize that human being can affect to many things in his life (and not only in his life, but life of others). There is a possibility to push the death away, increase the distance between you and your death or even make it closer. This period depends on the ability of the “negotiator” – sorcerer, magician, medium, shaman or whatever you call us. The death is not 100% predestined. It is predestined for those who waste their time watching TV and soap operas instead of living their live with mission and passion, to be a leader, widen their opportunities and trust the Universe in their spiritual journey. The choice to be nobody doesn’t depend on job or level of income. When a person chooses to be more mindful, the level of understanding is changing and he lives his own life, not somebody else’s – till the very end. There is a huge self-help industry, including motivational speakers and masters of yoga and mindfulness to help you find yourself. Whichever path you choose, you are responsible for this choice, not a society or someone’s abstract and senseless “because you have to”.

What’s the difference between magician (or witch) and ordinary person? The difference is in the level of mindfulness, responsibility for what you thought and what you did, understanding of global laws and realizing that you are much more than just the name, occupation and how you live your everyday life. You are a God, you are a Creator. You can create your universe right now, create the beauty and gold from what you have. You can change everything right now.

Past lives

The second factor of causes of death is the memory of your past lives. The most significant thing here is not your merits but the way you’ve died and which promises have your given to yourselves which may block your energy in present. Karma here is some kind of general background. Past lives often shown in a repeat of the same episodes over and over again to change a pattern. For example, you have drowned in your past live that is why in this life you have water phobia. This is very common in my practice. By changing a pattern through past lives, you can work with many issues in person’s life – why is he single, why he has no kids, why he has phobias, why everything goes that way etc. – and refer to the past lives’ experience. This is not universal method – as any other method. Often the person had complicated relationships with his partner and in this life he should heal that connection. This may be applicable when the client made a mental note about this particular partner, put a lot of energy about his feeling. This thoughtform and this energy are always reflected in the space around the client – I always see it. In one of your lives, in one of the universes you’ve created there is still a memory about certain event – and it feels like trauma. Everything you say, everything you feel is very important, all thoughtforms, all memories, all words said in certain state of consciousness, may affect to your life – even lives, and not even yours, and this affect may be significant. For example, the man died at age of 40 in his past live (wounded into chest). May be, the life before that past live was the same. It is very likely that his life now may be ended likewise – by heart attack, pneumonia or somehow connected with pain on the chest at the age of 40. So if this information occurs in the regression sessions or in meditation it should be worked out, unless the history will be repeated with no end, joy and freedom.